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2005-12-24T12:47:00.000-08:00

this will be my last entry on this blog... i've created another blog and it will only be opened to my close friends.. so if u think u r considered my close fren.. come find me.. i'll let ya know the address... but please do not link me.. cuz i dun wan blog-hoppers to find my blog... =) thanks..

anyway... will be going off for the chalet quite soon.. will be back on sunday night i guess. i'll miss my bed. hehes. going town with elin and jasmine later.. elin needs to get some presents and asked me to pick my own.. wahahaha... presents.. i love presents. =)

anyway.. kinda cleared things up with him ytd. =) so i guess i feel better and sour. lols. 50:50 la. haha. this kinda things.. i'll hav to learn to stand up on my own.. after i've fallen.. or else i'll always be the same.. i'll nv learn to become a better person.. if i dun take things easy, i would have committed suicide long time ago. =pPp dun wry ppl, im not tt dumb to commit suicide cuz of him. i still wanna carry living de. =)

was reading my entries from the previous year.. and he asked me a question..

"who changed u?"

nice question, but i dunno the answer either.. lols.. i actually tot that it was him who changed me.. cuz.. if any of u read my entries from last year, i would actually get depressed, cry and do all sorts of mad things when he didnt reply my sms. lol. it's only a sms. and i could be that mad. lols. i dunno how to put it in words. but for now, i guess he is the one who made me learn. =) cuz of his 'coldness' towards me.. how he could simply ignore my sms and make me plunge into depression.. so i guess i kinda learn from all these.. =) thats my answer to the question. hehe.

for him.
now that u know i have a blog, and that u've read my entries. be it me scolding u in my entries or u can see how mad i used to be.. perhaps if u really read them, u would see that it's not me, unwilling to let go. it's that i can't bear to let go. perhaps one day i will let go of u, when i've someone. but for now, i still love u. =) these four days have been short, but meaningful for me. =) from the moment u said that sentence, till ytd we cleared things up, everything's been here and over quickly. i've a few words of 'advice' for u. from my point of view that is.

dun always put urself down, saying that u're not a gd guy. no one is perfect, hence if u think u're not a gd guy, then wads the defination of one? perhaps in ur eyes u think u r a jerk who breaks other girls' hearts. but in their eyes perhaps u r the perfect one. just like in mine. =) i wouldn't say that u're a gd guy, neither would i say u're a bad guy. i admit i used to think u're a jerk. cuz of certain things which took place.

but since this year onwards, things been really great.. though im not sure if u already found out tt i like u long ago, or was it until recently. anyway, it's been really nice being with u. and i mean going out. lols. u've been a great friend and gave me encouragement whenever i feel down.. see? u ain't that useless or lousy afterall. =) at least u're a great friend.

think abt wad i've said in the email.. abt maintaining the feelings.. yup.. hope tt u'll find someone soon.. dun keep urself away cuz u THINK u're a bad guy.. =) take care.. love u loads.

2005-12-23T16:48:00.000-08:00

just woke up at around 3pm.. lol.. cuz i slept late last night. lols. not really late la. but i got home late.. reached home at ard 1.30am..

been out with huimei for shopping. got vanni a present.. hehes.. =) and huimei bought me a bag. huimei bought her fren a shirt too.. =) left huimei and her sis at bugis at ard 7pm.. went down to bishan to check out the timeslots for the movie.. didnt have any good seats so i went down to jubilee.. and as usual, they always had seats. lols. or is it my luck? haha. wadever..

ming kai came soon after i bought the tickets.. and we went to popular and i got some nice paper to make sth for jasmine.. =) went in for the movie at around 9pm. damn.. i shouldn't have wore a skirt ytd.. so damn cold. but i was acting strong. when he asked if i was cold. lols. yeah i was freezing.. he lent me his jacket and he himself was freezing. -_-!! we were like pushing the jacket to each other and in the end both decided not to take it. hahaha.. he asked me to hold on to him tighter if i felt cold..

clinged on to him throughout the whole movie, and i was thinking.. i knew myself too well. i knew that if one day he decides to leave me, i'll not be able to take it.. the more i tot about it, the tighter i held on to him.. like as if once the movie was over, it's over for us too. perhaps im thinking too much. but i hav this feeling that the day is comng soon. well. i'll have to let go once the day comes. isnt it..? how i wish i nv knew how he felt.. at least i could still feel that im the happiest person on earth.. for as long as he's here.. well. enough abt that.

the movie was ok.. not as nice as i expected it to be.. well.. left jubilee and he wanted to eat sth.. so we walked ard amk.. to find food. as a result, we missed the last bus to my hse.. he still had a bus home but he insisted on sending me home first.. so he had to walk home after sending me. kinda had a lil disagreement on the way.. he kinda shouted at me =( but well he said sorry after tt.. so.. let it be. i was so damn tired.. cuz i didnt wanna take cab.. so we had to walk to my place.. he wanted to piggyback me. but i didnt wan to.. so i walked. hahas.

gonna meet elin later to go shop for sth.. theres the chalet derrick's mum organised tml.. he still haven replied me if he's going.. well..

2005-12-21T20:05:00.000-08:00

yawns.. i just woke up at around 7pm.. hahaha.. but qiujin's sister's phone call. lol.s im like a map to her now. shes asking me how to get to ecp.

woke up at 5.30am this morning.. woke up suddenly and realised that i should be up to wash up and go out.. was on the phone with him last night.. and agreed to go to his house this morning at 6.30am... afterwhich go for breakfast and go band.. reached the void deck of his block at around 6.20am.. he came down and said that cannot go up.. lols.. nvm lor.. dun go la. hahha. walked to the bus stop.. took 315 back to serangoon.. reached at ard 7am.. went to have breakfast at the coffeeshop. he's such a pig. -__-!! ate noodles just like me, but he ate another 3 buns. no wonder he's so fat. hehes. cannot let him see this. he will kill me. haha. jkjk~

saw daddy and jumped in his car for a ride to school. =) ming kai was rather reluctant.. but gave way after a while. hahas. anyway.. we played American Patrol and Pink Panther today. =) i love American Patrol. though i dun have much melody parts, but it's fun!! rather challenging. hehes. ended practice at around 12.. next practice will be after christmas.. =) i didnt really realised tt xmas is coming soon. haha. still wondering y there's no practice on monday. hahahaha. anyway.. it's like almost the whole band thinks that we r together when we r not. -_-! they were disturbing me.. saying ming kai was waiting for me.. cuz i was walking so slowly at the back. haha. im old. =)

he came over for a while and left cuz he needs to attend some dragon boat thingy.. i waited for cristabel to come over.. and told huimei that im too tired to go out.. lols.. so i stayed home to slp. im sucha pig =) hehehes.

as for him..
i don't expect anything from you, because i know it's not possible. i know that the feeling will fade in no time. it's not possible to control ur feelings.. so when it fades, i'll just have to say good bye to u. but u'll still be the 'brother' i once acknowledge.. =) i know u can't promise me anything, and i dun wanna hear any empty promises.. when the day ur feelings for me fade, just let me know.. i dun wanna be a fool and not know anything.. i'll not hate u.. to me, u'll still be the one i loved two years ago.. unchanged. no matter wad u told me abt urself, saying that u're not a good guy.. u're still the perfect one in my eyes.. i was really happy when u told me that sentence.. the words i've waited to hear for two long years.. but for now, im happy enough. even though theres no relation between us..

2005-12-20T12:40:00.001-08:00

just woke up at around 12pm. haha. though i slept early last night. i went to bed at around 1am? i couldnt rmb. hehes.

went for band practice ytd.. met him at the beancurd shop for breakfast and walked to school together. he was feeling so nervous. lol. wanted to go home on the way. haha. did basics for practice and played American Patrol, of cuz at a slower speed. hehe. had to stop practice at about 10.30am cuz miss lee needed to speak to the members. the sec ones and him went for sectional.. haha.. i walked ard kpo-ing. lalala. went upstairs to ask him sth and he asked me to accompany him for sectional. -_-! im not a sax player how to accompany. siao.

the members had some discussion to do and he joined lin mei's group. i walked away cuz they were disturbing me and ming kai. -_-! after tt he smsed me to ask if i wanna leave already.. so we decided to go for lunch. lol. two of actually supposed to go for lunch alone.. but since the 'kids' wanted to go we couldnt do anything. haha. so we went to S11 for the noodles. and it totally sucks. -_-! so er xin. i only ate a mouthful and i gave the rest to mandl. haha. he kinda whispered to me and ask if i wanna go out, of cuz when the kids weren't looking. haha.

i tried to shake them off at the interchange. but couldnt. so in the end i left them to ming kai and walked off. haha! lalala..he came over to my house when i sms him saying why should we bother abt them? it's not like we're doing anything. lol. he borrowed a towel cuz he wanted to wash his hair. dad came home and he hid at the kitchen and didnt dare to come out. i went to the kitchen to 'find' him. he was hiding near the fridge and looked damn scared. left the house to meet shirly at the interchange cuz she wanted to borrow $$$ -__-!!

watched the movie king kong.. and i forgot the movie is 3 hours long.. -_-!! so.. the two of us got stuck there for 3 hours. quite funny la certain parts. haha.

the datei'll remember. [1912o5]
after ytd, i realised that it's acutally quite impossible for us to be together. bcuz of one sentence he said. well.. take things as they come ba.

im off to huimei's house to meet her and vanni. we're going rollerblading! yay!! =)

2005-12-16T13:31:00.000-08:00

just got home from band practice.. sir didnt come cuz he wasn't feeling well.. in the end we had to go for sectionals. and some ppl, whom i wouldn't name here, just simply laze ard, not doing anything. it's super irresponsible. the performance is tml, and they can actually say "i cannot make it on this bar"etc. if u noe that u can't make it, jolly well PRACTICE when u're given time to. why is it that others can make it while u can't? wads so special abt u?

band practice today was totally screwed up not cuz miss lee or mandl was the one conducting. it's cuz of those inconsiderate ppl who didnt practice and wanna try to get over with it. i admit tt i cant play certain songs well. for example American Patrol cuz we just got the scores today. and The Pink Panther i couldnt't play well too. SO? i sat at the stairs and practised by myself. unlike some ppl who just sat there, pretending.

i dun understnad y r some ppl so relaxed about tml's performance. of cuz im not saying that u should be nervous till the extent where u'll play wrong notes la. but at least... u need to feel the urge to practice. is it bcuz we r combining with bukitview tml? and they think that theres bukitview to back us up? true that bukitview is stronger than us. and im glad that we have them with us tml. but do they want the audience to feel that we, Peicai band is hiding among the bukit view players?

im quite tired. of this KINDA ppl. going out for movie with ming kai later.. it's like the movie is at 9pm and he sounds as if he wanna meet now.. -_-! im so tired. need to take a bath to freshen up. i still haven got my mickey shirt.. =(( and oh ya, gotta iron my clothes for tml later. ah!! im so drained.. -_-!!

gotta go bathe now.. he's coming over sooN.. yawns.

2005-12-15T17:38:00.000-08:00

was thinking of closing this blog actually... cuz i no longer wanna blog about my feelings anymore.. i dun need ppl to tell me wad to do.. it's my life... so just let me be. i understand that sometimes my frens advise me alot cuz they dun wanna see me get hurt. but sometimes it gets rather annoying when i actually feel that they r demanding me wad to do. im not pin pointing anyone. it's not just my frens. i dun wanna feel controlled. perhaps i'll make this blog private. where only my close frens could read it.

perhaps i'll just blog abt my life. but nth much abt him.

ytd was band camp.. things were quite messy.. but.. their planning wasnt detailed enough. some seniors may feel that ytd was great, but i tot nth much of it. well. walked bel to the interchange last night, i had no mood to go for supper with sir though he went. i realised he was in the car when kelly told me. well, i didnt felt like going. i jus wanna be alone. i had to think. bel asked me if i had a lost feeling. when the car just 'swept' past. i didnt feel much. yeah.

was feeling rather down ytd, cuz of many things. i just knew that i had to be alone, i felt like crying out loud, but yet i couldnt. sat at the interchange for a while after bel left. tears started to flow down, and i couldnt control it. i looked like a idiot sitting there, crying as if the end of the world had arrived. got on dad's car and he noticed that i wasnt myself. and he asked me if i was alright. it was rather dark so he couldnt see that i had been crying earlier on. just told him that i was hungry and tired. and i guess that fooled him. but the moment i tot abt those things, i just felt damn depressed. bel sms me after she left, saying that i had to put a stop to all these, and i had to let him know how i feel. she says it's too painful for me to endure all these on my own. i dun wanna tell him. i no longer have the courage to tell him. especially after being rejected twice. each time i found the courage to tell him how i feel, the result will be me, being rejected, and this time round i really hav no strength to tel him. i was thinking, last year, how the hell did i manage to find the courage to tell him. i didnt wanna tell him, cuz i can't go thru another round of 'cold war'. i can't bear to think that after i 've told him, he would avoid me as if im a virus.

he told me the other day that he dun wanna go into another relationship so soon. as if i want to. yawns.

we didnt talk last night at camp, he just smiled at me and i smiled back. i didnt noe wad to tell him. there's so many ppl ard, and i tot that it will be weird to talk to him. tongues might just start wagging behind our backs. he smsed me when sir's car passed by me and tot tt i wanted to go home. i told him i didnt wan to. and he asked me to go find them at s'goon gardens. i didnt wan to. but after tt i went to chomp chomp with my family and he asked me to go home with him. i couldnt. well..

he said that we r so close already and it doesnt matter if i ask him to go shopping with me.. yeah right... so far i always see guys who r reluctant to go shopping with girls. cuz we girls can shop and shop and they will get bored.

went shopping with van just now, for our performane on sunday.. and i spent almost $100.. now i need a pair of shoes. if i cant find, i'll just have to wear my heels from prom. yawns. meeting with van my cousin tml.. go shop for a pair of sandals and heels. =)

and oh ya, did i mention that i had the EAGLES award thingy? yeah i got that. but it's only like $150 la. for my service to band committee. =)

i'll stop here for now. im tired.. yawns.

2005-12-12T19:43:00.000-08:00

a long and tiring day... yawns... practice wasn't that smooth.. repeating all the mistakes... sian.. it's no surprise that sir will be fed up. sian.

just got home not too long ago.. sat at the bus stop with huimei for a while to talk.. after tt we walked home.. it's kinda.. lifeless i know. but i have no choice.. helped him borrowed a set of uniform.. just in case he thinks he can make it for this sunday's performance. yup. if he's not performing, i doubt he'll come support us.. well.. he's been accompanying me for the past two weekends.. so if i dun see him this weekend it doesnt matter. hehes.

wed will be the band camp.. i'll be collecting the cake on huimei's behalf, since she has no time.. im too free. he said he will meet me and we'll go to the bbq together. -__-! y do i feel that he keeps wanting to let ppl see us together. -_-! like ytd, he insisted on walking that way cuz he says theres more ppl here. yeah wadever. im drained for today. im skipping dinner.

meeting vanessa[maisy] tml.. she's got a job intro for both of us.. hopefully both of us can get it then can go work together. that will be fun. i've nv worked b4!! i wanna experience wad it's like. hehes. just for the fun of it. now the pay doesnt really bother me much anymore.. since i just wanna have a try. =) lalala. that place.. i guess there wun be high chance of running into my friends =Pp it will be weird la.. hahaha.. well. better than jasmine right.. ask me go to the PS everbest shoe shop to work. -_-! lalala..

im kinda sick of telling ppl that me and him ARE NOT together. ppl always ask, and i always have to explain that we're only frens. -_-!

joanna's got a job.. so fast. lols. gonna find one day go shopping with her. she wanna get the shoes like mine. and i wanna get my juniors some presents. =pPp gott wait for her to get her schedule. yup..

he's rather persistant.. in wanting to perform.. huimei says she can't catch up.. but im afraid he can't, cuz he stopped playing like a year ago? and never touched music since then. yawns. just called, saying he's not gonna perform liao. wth... i took the uniform for nth. fat pig. -_-!

looking forward to this coming wed, hoping that we will be better when combined with bt view. sometimes i feel tt the band is not doing well, perhaps they have the concept tt it's just a practice. and perhaps will give their best shot in front of outsiders. i hope my hunch is right. where is that miracle when we needed it so much? we're progressing too slowly, even myself. sir asked me to play alone today, and i thought he's gonna criticise my playing again.. but he told them to play like me. haha. how rare. lalala..

yawns. was talking to ming kai just now. so i've been blogging for an hour. wth. he's on his way home.. so pei him talk lor. yup. i gotta go bathe now. wahahaha. =)

2005-12-11T21:13:00.000-08:00

hmmms. im quite bored today. cuz of my headache. it's killing me.

woke up at ard 10 plus this morning, washed up changed and went to grandma's hse. stayed there for a while and ming kai said wanna go escape. -_-! but i was wearing skirt.. so i had to go home to change. in the end we decided not to go.. cuz it's too expensive and i'll only be attracted to go kart. =pPp

slacked at my hse for the afternoon cuz we're so pathetic and dunno where to go. -_-!! went out for late lunch cuz he's hungry, and he said he send me home. but he stayed for a while cuz the sun is... hot. duh.. LOL. he's rather childish i realised, i was watching tv and he was pulling my legs and my hands. asking me to PLAY with him. -_-!! he thinks im a toy la.. wanna play me. wt.. and he turned off my tv when i refused to. wad a kid. haha. and oh ya, i realised recently alot of ppl r giving me choco. haha. he gave me a chocolate. actually he wanted to give me the whole box but i took only one piece. hehehe.

finally sent him off at ard 6pm.. and i went to bathe. lols. im having toothache AGAIN. that stupid tooth. feel like banging against the wall and make it fall off. argggss..

2005-12-10T18:06:00.000-08:00

phew! finally cleaned up my room. haha. went for the tea ceremony thingy with dad and mum this early afternoon. =) got home at ard.. 2pm.. played conquer for a while, and decided to clean up my room. =D cleared all my books!! yay!! im confident that i will not repeat sec 4. hehes..

giving some of my books to rodney.. he wants it.. lalala.. now part of my room is so clean!! cuz jasmine didnt clean her things. i only helped her to clean the surface. haHa! cleaned the other com desk in elin's room and her CD rack.. since some of my CDs r there.. well.. cleaned her hi-fi set as well. =) sense of acheivement. LOL. how stupid.

leaving for the wedding dinner soon.. afterwhich i'll go to huimei's hse.. and stay over. for the fun of it. haha. tml.. going shopping with vanessa.. well.. not really shopping.. just looking for shoes to go along with her outfit. and it's time tt i bought a new pair of sandalS!! hehes..

theres practice on mon.. i'll be there.. band bbq on wed.. i'll be there too.. but theres only me and jo stayin over. not fun de.. -_-!! sian.. lalala..

i dunno wad to type le. so sian.

blog more when im home ;)

2005-12-08T17:33:00.000-08:00

im home! =)

went out early in the morning to meet vaN for tanning.. but i woke up late -_-!! but in time to meet van. hehes. and, i was so blur, i sent the msg to the wrong vanessa. -_-!! i wanted to sent van lim saying the bus come le, im boarding it. but i sent to van tan. my cousin instead. awww.. hehes.. been ages since i went tanning.. cuz of prom, i dun wanna spoil my skin color.. so i stayed home.. =D today's sun was alrite.. for me at least. =) im rather tanned.. =) those who will be meeting me within these few days will see the diff. wahahahas.. i think the color is still ALRITE.. hehes.. van is scary. shes so red!! LOLs.. like a.. cooked crab.. oh no, it's a lobster. haha.

me and van went to bathe after tanning.. and went to amk library to find bel.. then we went on to PS together. =) had lunch there.. afterwhich we went to this shop to get bel's xmas cards.. =) van wanted to get siling sth.. for her birthday.. and i wanna get someone something. i dun wanna say it here. later she read dao, then not fun le. hehes.

bel's so funny. she's playing with nail polish.. haha.. we tried many colours.. and 3 of us bought a color each.. =) van was looking rather tired, im tired too. haha. and bel looked... i dunno la. haha. went home after i got the present =))

and oh ya! i must blog here, just to remember. haha. huimei bought me M&M choco ytd, and brought it to my hse. hahas. thx girl. =))

theres no dinner for me tonight =(

perhaps i'll survive by eating potato chips! hehehes.. meeting huimei,van,kelly and choon wei tml =) and theres a wedding dinner to attend on sat.. and after tt perhaps i'll go huimei's house.. =) sunday... going out with vanessa... this time is my cousin. haha..

i'm off for now. gotta go bathe first. =) my hair is so dry from all the tanning..

2005-12-07T13:02:00.000-08:00

yawNs it's holiday mood... of cuz i'll rot in bed till noon. haha.. i slept at ard 1 plus ytd and planned to slp all the way till noon. -_-!! but got woke up by ming kai's msg at 9am...!! it's 9am!! omg... i wanna slp and he msg me. -_-!! anyway.. i went back to slp after reading and replying his msg. WAHAHA.

daddy just called to ask wad i wanna have for lunch.. but he says no fastfood. -_-!! then wad can i eat?? im still thinking.. oh yeah! i wanna eat nasi bryani. i dunno how to spell.. hhahaa.. awwww.. it's holiday now.. and i bet i'll gain a few kgs.. -_-!! everyday stay home play computer.. then daddy buy lunch for me.. i dun even need to eat lunch in the first place!! cuz i dun need the energy.. damn.. i must exercise. go swimming or go gym.. =) but it's always say say and no action. daMn..

well.. theres nothing much to blog abt my life.. cuz mon and tues i've been a good lil girl, staying home. =) hehehe. im broke la. how to go out. i needa job. but can't find. -_-! any kind soul wanna intro? hehes..

gonna wash the euphonium later.. i think it's dirty.. hmm.. and afterwhich i'll bathe my guinea pigs.. they stink like helL!! ewwww!! perhaps i should put some perfume on them.. hahahaha.. nahh daddy will kill me if i try to do that to his darlings. oopss =)

elin just went out.. which means im alone at home again.. im such a pathetic kid.. hahahaha... well.. im waiting for my lunch.. meanwhile i'll go play my games first. hehes.

2005-12-06T14:34:00.000-08:00

5 weird things abt mE!!

1. i have a funny chinese name.("Jijing" sounds like chicken essence eh?)
2. i hate to eat seafood especially fish, yet i'm in love with bbq stingray. =)
3. i can only sleep on my right side with my pillow covering my face.
4. my favourite color is blue, yet most of my clothes are black.
5. i say i love my band, yet i don't play well. -__-!!

thats all abt me.. =) weird enough? hehes..

gAmE??
Rules of the game:
1) Post 5 weird or random facts about yourself
2) At the end, write 5 people's name, the people who you want to do this quiz next
3) Then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

2005-12-05T22:59:00.000-08:00

yay!! i'll be rotting at home for the whole of this week!! siao. im mad. haha. just feel like staying home to... play my game. haha. unless someone asks me out, i'll stay home. i'll not ask ppl out.. for this week. hehes.

hmm.. elin pulled me out of bed this morning, asking if i want to have breakfast. i said no, and went back to dreamland. woke up again at 11.30am when she was nagging non stop. haha. asked me to accompany her to the dentist.. and sae she very nervous. -_-!! went home after that, and played conquer for the whole day. lalala. went to central with huimei just now, to get a cake for bbq. =)

was practising on the eupho this afternoon and i stopped cuz i was pissed with the valves. i need valve oil. so i'll meet pj tml to get it. and give the eupho a gd wash. =) was practising halfway and my phone rang. ming kai smsed me SUDDENLY. simply with a "hello". -_-!! then he said "later then msg u" and of cuz, as expected his LATER never comes. haha. or, it comes after a few days. hahaha..

and yes jasmine is back from penang today.. wonder if she helped me buy any clothes. hehe. she bought elin an addidas cap. -_-!! lols. it's nice. but i have no use for caps.. .yupp.. so im not jealous =pPp

hmmms.. think i'll have to find sth to do tml, besides sticking to the com for 10 hours. -_-!! and thats wad i did today. i have to stop b4 my two eyes gets doubled - four eyes. which means i need specs. haha.

im aching all over.. including my butt! damn.. my forehead is swollen. -_-! looks like a scratch or sth. i dunno wad the hell is that. wadever. my back hurts.. as if theres a blue black there.. oucH.. and my legs.. feels like it's gonna break.. =( daddy says im falling sick soon. -_-! i hope it's b4 the performance. haha. no. i hope it's after the performance. cuz b4 the performance theres band camp. =Pp i wanna play. lalala.

i just realised how dumb i am. haha. not really la. but i AM DUMB!! i actuallyt forgot that my hp has mp3 player. -_-!! and i am not using it. dot dot.. well. i'll ask elin how to get the songs into my phone cuz the manual wasnt helpful. -__-!!

it's time to change to laptop.. cya peeps! =)

2005-12-05T22:57:00.000-08:00

2005-12-04T22:05:00.000-08:00

yawNs.. i dunno wad was i telling huimei ytd on the phone. LOL. i was half aslp but still faking that im wide awake. finally couldnt take it at near 2am and i hung up and go to bed. hehes.

chalet was rather fun. went escape with qiujin,marcus,jiafeng,jiayan,natalie and desiree ytd. we played for the entire day. im addicted to Go Kart!! omg.. i didnt know it was so fun... im gonna go again within this holiday. LOL. i must!! i jus found out that the panasonic ride wasnt opened ytd, for a gd reason. daddy just told me abt the accident. and showed me ytd's paper. ppl got kinda thrown off the cart. so the ride is suspended. aww man.. i loved that ride so much. i was still wondering ytd, y was it closed.. sigh.

go kart was so shiok. =Ppp the first time i played, i was rather shaky and didnt dare to go fast.i scared that i'll die in the car. wahaha. how dumb of me. when i kinda got hold of it, and used to it, i overtake others. the feeling was... GREAT! lol. went back to changi chalet with them just as i promised des that i'll go. she wanted to take pics with me. shes adorable. LOL. i told ming kai she's cute. and it will be great if shes my sis. and guess wad he said? he said my sis is cuter. WAHAHAHA.. *jasmine!! saw that?*

anyway i didnt go WWW with ming kai today.. just like i said, it wasnt convenient.. smsed him in the morning and suggested that we go blading and cycling. but he sae he dunno how to blade. -_-! as if im a pro. well, anyway we went to bishan to catch a movie. Aeon Flux. hmmm. it was rather boring at first, cuz i dunno wad is it abt. but overall it's quite nice. just a bit unrealistic. haha. went to shop ard for his present for the band bbq gift exchange. i just realised that he's just as picky as me. LOL. he seemed to be shopping for sth he likes instead. -_-!! took a bus to compass point cuz he said theres a shop that might have wad he wanted.. so we went down. in the end we didnt buy anything and he ate ice kachang. fat pig. he's got a terrifying appetite. we just had our meal at j8 and i was abt to throw up already. he's still not full.

well.. he wanted comics but didnt have enough $$$ so we went to his house to get some. and i needed to get back my vcd as well. accompanied him down to hougang mall and we ran into meiting and mei yu. they were shocked to see us. LOL. went to the int to take bus.. his came first so he left. i was too tired to wait for my bus.. LOL> so i told daddy to pick me up. =pPp

bought the jay chou album cuz elin told me to. i only like one song. how dumb. and yet i bought the whole album. -_-!! elin's gonna be home soon. im off to play conquer now or else later cannot play. guess tml i'll be home to practice. =)

thats all for now.

2005-12-02T00:40:00.000-08:00

just got home not too long ago.. from the chalet at aloha changi.. the room is quite spacious.. =) but it's quite isolated. qiujin was saying she's far from civilisation. hahas.

it's double storey, so qiujin, marcus, qiujin's sisters, two of their frens and myself took a room.. we cleaned up the place, had lunch and the 3 of us went off to rent bikes, leaving the kids to go swim. yupp.. went to the pool to find the kids after a lil while and took some pics at the pool. =) hmm.. theres this lil girl named desiree.. we jus call her des. LOL. shes pretty cute. =) but im not quite used to her calling me jessica jie jie. LOL. feels kinda weird. anyway, we went back to the room after swimming for card games. i didnt join them. =) dun wanna gamble. hehe. after that went down to help for the bbq, and the few of us were fed up, but i'll not sae it here. it's a long story. =))

daddy came to pick me up at 11pm though i told him to come at later time. haha. just bathed and going to bed soon if huimei's not calling. promised des that i'll go escape with them tml and will stay till a later time. =) note: u better keep a promise u made to a kid. LOL. or she'll rmb. haha. so yup im gonna meet them at escape tml.

sth happened again, so the trip to wild wild wet is once again NOT CONFIRMED. -_-!! it's not really convenient for me to go cuz i jus had my period and having those stupid cramps. HOW LUCKY. -_-!! and he's complaining to me that he's tired and scared he couldnt wake up on time. he didnt reply my sms, guess he's already aslp. well, i smsed him, regardless if he's got it or wad. told him that we shall go another time. since he 's SO TIRED. -_-!

anywya im oso quite tired. been out for the whole day. yaWns. off to bed for now. gotta wake up early again. =)

2005-12-01T23:42:00.000-08:00

finally can sit down... and blog. hehe. today is a thurs.. and as usual i went for practice. =)) i brought THE SCHOOL'S euphonium home for practice. ;) and of cuz, i brought home lotsa scores. hehes. lalala.. and i brought ming kai's tenor mouthpiece home. -___-!! not for myself though.

anyway.. went home straight after practice cuz daddy came to pick me and the eupho up. so heavy. =) waited for bel at my block's void deck after daddy dropped me. went up to my hse together and i took quite some time to bathe etc while she used to com. =) we played some puzzle thingy for quite some time before leaving my hse for amk library.. hmm. bel asked me to wear my heels i wore for prom, ok i wore. and the pathetic accident happened in the library. we were fooling ard and i tripped over. i didnt fall flat on the grd, but kinda lost balance. immediately after that, i could feel that my heels were kinda broken. -_-! not really. got bent or sth and one side is higher than the other. -_-! slacked at the library and read some books. was supposed to meet huimei at PS afterthe library trip but i told her i dun wana go le cuz i was too tired. i got home, but somehow decided to meet her after my dinner. so yup. i went to PS to accompany her for dinner and ice cream.

talking abt ice cream, the PS swensens customer service is real bad. firstly, the manager didnt really show us to our seat, but the normal procedure is to do so. nvm that. it's fine. next, they didnt give us water, and this is another normal thing to do when u have customers sitting there. i didnt really notice until huimei brought it up. -_-! nvm. our ice cream came, and theres no spoon. i got fed up, picked up the feedback form and wrote hell alot of comments. and of cuz, i dropped it into the feedback box. if im to ever have swensens again, i'll rather go to other branches. but as for now, like huimei said, no swensens for two months. one bad experience is enough.

enough abt that, i bought a jacket thingy from giordano, and i love it. haha. it's lime green. so bright. =)) there's chalet tml.. jus some kinda thing organised by qiujin's family and we're just going there for fun.. still deciding if i wanna stay over. most likely no. i prefer my bed. and my games. =Ppp saturday.. perhaps i'll go find them again to go escape. =) and sunday i promised ming kai to go wild wild wet with him. -_-!! imagine two kids going there.. well i hope i can make it. =) yup.

im off to bed for now, gotta wake up early tml. =) cya peeps! =pPp

2005-11-30T18:48:00.000-08:00

i woke up quite early today... the reason why? to play my game. hehes. downloaded it ytd and i have been playing it the whole day. well, not really. i went out with qiujin just now. =)

meet qiujin at amk mrt and to find the person to get a form to fill in for a job. and to my surprise, it's the motorola factory. wahahaha. after so much, i still managed to find it. well.. it isnt comfirmed yet, if we're employed. have to wait for their call. yup.. oh god.. i do hope they will call us. im DYING for a job. hahaha. hopefully that i can work the night shift so i can go for morning band practice. hehee. hmm.

went to jurong jus now to fix qiujin's mp3 player. after that we went for lunch and i went home cuz i was too sleepy. but the moment i got home, i was stuck to my chair and my game =Ppp
he smsed me just now and i asked him if he'll be going for the chalet with me. he replied " hope so". wad an answer. -_-!! forget it. once i start working i'll hav no time for him. so, who cares. hahaha.

theres band practice tml. lets pray hard. that it will not be as bad as monday. =))

off for dinner and a good bath before that. hehes. =D

2005-11-29T22:47:00.000-08:00

not going swimming tml already... yupp.. too far frm amk.. hehes.

was talking to ming kai just now.. and he suggested going wild wild wet on sunday... but as usual.. disagreements came up, and he called it off. fine.. at first i told him im asking qiujin and marcus to go together.. and he kinda objected to it, saying he dunno them well and not used to going with ppl he dunno. and given my character, i told him that it's ok etc... then in the end he said nvm he dun join us.

and AS USUAL again, he said sorry. it's useless, can't he see it? arrggs. forget it.

2005-11-29T15:32:00.000-08:00

went out early in the morning with qiujin and marcus.. went to the agency to look for a job. yupp. filled in a form and we were asked to take a typing test...! -_-!! i was so damn nervous i dunno wad for, and i just went on and on typing. haha. qiujin started a bit earlier than me.. and marcus started after her. and i was struggling with the log in. -_-! then both of them stopped typing and i was still typing away. -_-!! my speed was 41 words/min. lol. qiujin was 33 and marcus was 29. hmm. im going swimming with qiujin tml and i wanna go amk.. for the job thing. =)

and thurs will be set aside for band practice again. hehehe. =) im afraid when i start working i'll have lesser time for band =S i'll check out the working hours first. hehes. im using desktop and trying to download conquer AGAIN. i didnt give up. hehee.. well. ytd daddy was in a hurry to pick me up from school cuz band practice was over. then he told me he call the police cuz theres this lunatic lurking ard my block. LOL. he sent me straight home and instructed me not to come out. lol. so funny. lalala.

most ppl couldn't recognise me when they saw my prom pics. -_-! im so sad. wahaha. jkjk~ stupid ming kai gave stupid comments. he said he almost couldn't recognise that it was me and said that i looked beautiful. -_-! after that he said that no one would tell me i look like an old hag though the truth hurts. wth... stupid mouth of his. humph. i told him i refused to talk to him cuz he's a bad person. haha!

i wanted to watch la bi xiao xing ytd, but found that out of 6 boxes, i had two missing. -_-!! and that reminds me that ming kai still has my VCD - date with vampire 3. -_-!! have to pass him his tenor sax scores and get my VCD as well. yupp.

and yes, theres a performance coming up for PCSS band in dec and some of the alumni members will be playing as well. hee. =) i wanna play.. lalala.

it's been almost a week since i saw him.. haha. it's fast. lalala.

im quite tired now.. yawns. cya peeps. im going off. =)

2005-11-26T23:50:00.000-08:00

yawnS.. have been out for the whole day.. went out at 8.30am to attend miss shim's church wedding at thomson.. miss shim looked pretty. LOL.

anyway, went for the Ngee Ann Poly band concert with jasmin and huimei. i shall not comment on their performance. those who went will know. =)) hehes. talking abt fri. it's prom. and i was so god damn pissed off with the hairstylist, though he did a nice job with my hair, but! he is partly y i was late. -_-!! he was taking his own sweet time and talking to someone while doing my hair. -_-!! so fed up. in the end i was late for prom. nvm that. it's was pretty fun, i would say. quite funny. hahaa. our table got served cuz we won some kinda quiz thingy? lol.

took quite a number of pics, yup. =)

many looked different ytd night.. ahhaa.. all the gorgeous babes. lalala. i wanna play conquer but this laptop is god damn slow. -_-!! i bet it will hang the moment i start running the game. haha! im drained for today. gtg now. =) tml's grandma's birthday celebration. yup.

2005-11-25T22:38:00.000-08:00

yawns.. it's unbelievable. theres nth on in the morning and yet im up so early. LOL. but.. i slept rather early last nite.. so... hahaha.. yup.. tonight's prom, and i'll be meeting that sotong later to go town. haha. i think today will be one of those days in my life, when i'll be taking so many times cab in a day. LOL. taking cab to town, taking cab to go down to the club. and taking cab home. LOL.

well. talking to joyce on msn now.. asking her if after prom wanna go out chiong. haha.see how. perhaps i'll be like ytd, no mood for walking and shopping. haha. went to huimei's hse last night, or should i sae evening. LOL. and watched her sort out the alumni info.. yupp. =pPp i was busy copying the phone numbers. haha! hmms.

im bored now.. maybe i should go back to bed. it's just beside me. LOL. off for now. =))

2005-11-24T16:42:00.000-08:00

yup! finally went back to band practice today. WAHAHA.. played mambo no. 5. it's nice, cuz my section had the melody part. quite fun. hehe. went to PS for lunch with bel and strolled ard.. cuz we dun wanna go home. hehe.

we were having lunch at long john.. then we saw this person and had a hard time figuring out if that person is a guy or a girl. 'he' sounds like a girl, yet looks like a guy. -_-!! had features of a girl, but dress like a guy. well anyway we couldnt figure it out. yeah so we didnt bother. haha. went to the arcade cuz bel wanted to play the drum thingy, and i sat there looking at my score. wahaha. how weird.

went home after visiting Times, the bookstore cuz we're quite tired . haha. i'll still be going out tonight. yaWns. it's prom tml.. yup. asking daddy to fetch me there and i meet my frens there. =) today's band practice... a whole grp of them were late and said they THOUGHT band starts at 8.15am. -__-!! though they got punished, i somehow feel that this isnt solved. they think very lil of the punishment. "aiya pumping only ma!" yeha. ONLY. cuz they dun do it properly. -_-!! this isnt their first holiday practice. and ppl can sae they THOUGHT. omg. wad is this band becoming like? i cant imagine. -_-!!

i'll stop here first. im dozing off.

2005-11-24T00:09:00.000-08:00

haha finally got to watch the movie i've wanted to, and i was whining away in the cinema. kinda irritating though,(sry mk. LOL) but it's really.... argggSSs!! that feeling. though i said in my previous entries that i didnt finish reading the storybook, but i read the front, and the stupid movie started from ard where i stopped reading. as in wad was happening in front wasn't screened in the movie. -_-! bleah. but still, i love the movie. think it's getting more and more exciting. the first movie was kinda kiddish, wad can u expect. it's a STORY! LOL. i was getting anxious throughout the whole show. i was practically jumping on my seat. hahaha. not forgetting that it was freezing in there.

alrite i think it'll be more sensible if i start talking abt my day first. -_-!! hmms. i slept late ytd, ard 3am near 4. yup. and woke up at... ard 8 plus. yaWns. u can imagine how tired i am. well.. went to school to meet miss lee abt alumni. afterwhich we went to the hall to get our results slip, report book, testimonial and other stuffs abt JC etc. my pathetic cls only had two ppl who made it to the 3 months JC. lols. i was rather surprised to see that my L1R4 was like.. 19? lols. yeah it isnt a very big thing to boast abt, but well, im SURPRISED...LOL. went to PS with bel at ard 2 plus and shopped for miss shim's present.. lol. i seriously think that present is rather CUTE. hahahaha. hope that she will like it. =))

accompanied bel back to serangoon mrt since im too free. lol. took my own sweet time to go to PS cuz it was only ard..5.30pm? and the movie starts at 7. haha. i reached PS by ard.. 5.45pm. yup. and i strolled level 6 for damn long. cuz he didnt call me. -_-!! then i went up to the top floor where the cinema is, and he's standing there, and told me his phone is flat. -_-!! no wonder.

had yoshinoya for DINNER. -_-!! it was ard 10pm. ha.! my dinner. so late. zzz. and some pig didnt have enough food so he bought a burger at mac. -_-!! and we sat outside PS like two pathetic fools without a home. LOL. jkjk~ hmmms. got home at.. abt... 11.20pm? yupp. and yes! theres practice tml!!! lalala... well well i know my juniors r even better than me now.. haha. i'll hav to practice then. yup.

gotta go slp now. i dun think i can tahan with so lil slp . haha. will update perhaps tml? yup. or after my prom which is on friday. yupp. =)

2005-11-23T01:28:00.000-08:00

it's 1am and here m i blogging away cuz my game takes 9 hours to complete downloading. guess i'll have to keep the laptop on then. yup. should be ok i guess? well wadever.

o's over and im feeling bored. haha. cuz.. we dun have to study anymore.. =pPp im sounding rather cheeky eh? well.. to be honest, im REALLY bored without exams. hahaha.. perhaps i wun think so after i get into poly. =))

was talking to huimei on the phone just now and i hung her up cuz ming kai was on the other line. huimei, i apologise here if i appeared to be zhong se qing you.. i noe i bang seh u, and though u sae u dun blame me, but i understood when u asked me for a reason y i hung u up. it's hard to say it here. so perhaps i will not sae much. both u and him r equally important to me, at least i could sae that for now. it's not crap when ppl sae they wun bang seh frens for their bfs/the ones they like. well, enough abt unhappy stuffs.

tml we'll be going back to sch to get our testimonials, cls photos, report books etc. oopps. i should sae later. LOL. hmmms.. still thinking of wad i should get miss shim for her wedding. it's kinda rude to turn up without a present uh? hmmm... wanted to go shopping tml. but bel's not going. yeah yeah im anti social and have few frens. so? wads the big deal abt it? lalalala.. guess everything in school will be done by ard.. 12pm? or a lil later. im not sure. should take too long i guess.. i wanna come home and play my game. hehehes. hmm. it's been ages since i played that game. i missed it. due to o levels, i had to stop playing. =)

hmmm.. told miss lee that i'll be borrowing the sch's euphonium home to practice. so i'll drop by on thurs to fetch the instrument home.. yipee!! hehee.. friday is prom, and i dun feel like going now. hahahaha... well.. depends... i dunno. having mixed feelings. haha. feel like going and dun feel like going..

perhaps i'll go to town a lil earlier tml.. before i meet ming kai for the movie. yup. just to shop ard for the present for miss shim =) he scared me just now, telling me he's not sure if he DID book the tickets. lol. i told him that i will strangle him on the spot tml if he didnt book the tickets. i was joking of cuz.. how could i? later his mum kill me. LOL. crap.

seems like this year theres alot of planning for band camp. LOL. hope that the camp would run smoothly. =)) hmmm.. im looking forward to the camp, cuz it will be the first time im going back as a graduate hehes. yupp..!!

gotta go already it's getting late and i have to go to sch later. yawNs. but i cant fall aslp. CRAP. off to bed. cya peeps.

2005-11-21T17:55:00.000-08:00

hmmms... one more paper tml and it's all over. =)) science mcq. how dumb. hahaha...

anyway, did i mention buying a new phone? lols i guess not. and yip i've got wad i wanted. Samsung E350. hmmm... it's TINY.. and my hands r too BIG.. that i almost dropped my phone while sms-ing. -_-!!

anyway.. i've been having weird dreams lately.. it's always some kinda scary dream and i will be like waking up from shock. how 'nice'. lalala.. went for the NIE concert ytd, and went chomp chomp with huimei and mandl.. haha it's been ages since i ate so much. or rather so.. shuang. haha..

mummy's working tonight so there's no dinner AGAIN.. -_-!! off to meet jasmine and elin..

2005-11-20T12:06:00.000-08:00

yawNs*

i just crawled out of bed cuz daddy was nagging non stop -___-!!

fell aslp at ard... 2.45am? yeah.. ard there.. was talking to huimei on the phone.. yupp.. had a hair cut ytd.. hehehes.. not really a big diff, but just trimmed the ends. =) yupp.. and i spent a bomb on accessories ytd, but i can't rmb why.. hahaha.. bought two necklaces, earrings... yupp.. i spent more than $100 ytd, including the cost for my haircut. =(

haircut - $29
necklace 1 - $26
necklace 2 - $16.9
earrings - $15.9
present for qiujin - $11
something i can't rmb.. -_-!! - $12

u do the maths. haha.. i went mad ytd. yawns. borrowed the HP story book frm huimei, but by now i only managed to finish less than half. haha. cuz my sis and mingkai was stoppied me from reading -_-!! lols. not really. i only read for 2 hours that night(fri nite) and the next day i left the book alone. LOL.. oopppss*

and yes! im gonna watch harry potter on wednesday. lalala... quite a gd seat (cuz it's not in front. haha) he booked the tickets already... so.. sure got seats. =pPp meeting mandl and jiban later for the NIE concert at Singapore Conference Hall.. with huimei oso.. =)

two days.. and FREEDOM IS MINE!! hahaha.. lalala..

im off to get sth before i go out. cya ppl! =)

2005-11-17T10:51:00.000-08:00

today's the 17th.. Happy Birthday Jasmine!!! =))

hmms.. today's paper is... POA paper 2... still got a few more hours to it.. hehe.. will be meeting bel in sch later to revise.. lalala.. i wanna buy a hp.. by this fri.. which is tml.. hahahha... will talk to mum tonight.. hehe... lalala... ytd's paper was quite surprising though, i expected something more difficult =)) it's easier than prelim i guess? haha.. but it's kinda worrying that most papers this year r easy -_-!!

well.. im off to sch, to meet bel.. =) POA paper 2 today.. good luck ppl! =))

2005-11-14T16:38:00.000-08:00

yawns.. my dad's new phone is driving me crazy.. it's not really user friendly afterall.. i still prefer nokia.. hehee.. nokia is still the best.. to me, at least. well.. daddy bought a new phone ytd.. some kinda phone from O2.. this brand have always been producing PDAs etc.. im not too sure.. so it's kinda stranger brand to me.. hahaha.. i love the camera, it's quite sharp. but helping my dad activate the damn bluetooth device is killing me. i spent abt an hour before i could get it. lols. perhaps im dumb. well.. the manual wasn't that helpful anyway..

went to suntec and bugis ytd with dad and mum, and sth unpleasant happened, but im not gonna say it here. =) anyway, i went ard collecting info on different phones.. haha.. i've decided on one phone.. but have to check out the price first. =) if it's too expensive, i'll not buy it. =)) Samsung E350. =)) looks like elin's phone, but it's different. in terms of functions etc. =)

will be having my geog elective paper on wed.. and POA paper 2 in the afternoon.. =) im rather confident in POa.. haha.. yupp.. good luck to those taking these two paperS!

2005-11-12T14:06:00.000-08:00

i don't know how much more i can take, but i know im almost breaking down. i feel like asking someone to hit me on the head, then perhaps i'll go into a coma just like those dramas. im too tired, and i dun mean physically..i meant mentally.

went for the Band NCO pop thingy yesterday.. went ard taking pictures and left with huimei and cristabel... took a cab down to j8 cuz the bustop... damn crowded.. went for long john for dinner cuz i was starving... talked and talked abt many things and we left at ard 9.30pm.. bel took a bus home and as usual, me and huimei walked home. we left j8 at 10 and when i got home, it's almost 12am. we walked and stopped along the way cuz i was wearing slippers and my feet hurts like hell.

i really dunno how much more i can take.. im dying already. though o's is half over, im feeling more stressed up and tired.. about many things.. abt him.. abt my friends.. abt my life after o's. some may think im insane, worrying abt such things. yeah i am insane. so?

well.. im off to huimei's house.. im lazy to say anymore. =(

2005-11-10T12:46:00.002-08:00

six papers down, six more to go.. it's really fast, half of the papers r over.. well.. tml.. E math paper 2. =) next week onwards will be rather relaxing.. accounts and geog.. lalala.. ytd's physics.. the easy ones r really easy la. but the difficult ones were tricky.. so.. yeah jus hope for the best =) english was ok.. but i kinda dozed off while doing it. haha! but i did finish the whole paper. hehes.

ytd he msg me all of a sudden. like as if he's trying to find sth to talk abt.. i didnt know wad to say, i stared at my phone for a long time before i started typing. it was as if i didnt know wad i was saying but yet i could reply. hmmm.. he said that he's waiting for his fren at the cinema. whom i suppose is a girl. obviously. and it made me realise, that everytime we went out, im the one who bought the tickets and waited for him. -_-!! except for once he was buying the tickets then i reached. huimei told me that he's taking it for granted that i will wait for him all the time. and that i should flare up one day. well... who haven thought of that? i wanted to, but how? i couldn't just walk away when he comes, cuz i've already bought the tickets -_-!! in abt two weeks time o's will be over.. he said he will find me when i finished my papers. who knows? i think i need a break from all these. i survived 6 months with him out of my life. and all of a sudden he decides to come back and mess it up.

we had disagreements last nov, and he decided to leave me alone. fair enough. i left him alone too. i didnt wan to be irritating. dec, he had a new gf, and all the more i wouldn't talk to him. till feb i heard that they broke up, yet i still ignored him. april, he had someone new, still didnt talk. and heaven had to make a fool out of me.. he started talking to me in june. and for the next 4 months things have ben peaceful. and it's the first time we didnt quarrel in so many months. now, im getting irritated. by everything. i dunno wth im thinking. he's treating me like a spare tyre. when he's got no one to turn to, he came back to me.

who wants to get caught in such a situation? no one.. not even me. think im happy listening to his "sorry-s" and excuses? im not. no one knows how i feel. not even huimei or cristabel. i wanna get out of this, but no one can help me.

2005-11-08T10:39:00.000-08:00

the paper i feared the most, is finally over now. CHEMISTRY. lols.. some ppl might think im dumb to be scared of this paper, but i swear, it's scary. FOR ME. well.. i got a shock when i started doing the paper. it was quite easy. =)) but.. it isn't a piece of good news either.. if everyone finds it easy.. some of u might jus noe wad i meant. yupp..

tml will be tiring.. 3 papers at one go.. hmmm.. english.. im not too worried. it's phy im worried abt.. well.. jus hope that i'll do well.. after this week i'll have less worries. =))

2005-11-01T18:37:00.000-08:00

2005-10-31T15:46:00.000-08:00

chinese paper is finally over.. i would sae it's easier than the May paper. =)) o's is in a week's time. and im getting happier each day. some of u may think im nuts. but dun u think it's better if it comes and go quickly? just like the wind.. lalalala... im mad.

im feeling rather happy.. lalala.. after o's theres plenty of things i wanna do. a long list of it in fact. haha.. i wanna have fun fun fun! i can't rmb when is the last time i went out with a group of frens to have fun. =)

two more weeks, and i'll be free. =))

2005-10-26T13:25:00.000-07:00

i was stupidly thinking that things were finally getting better between me and him, and i had to see something i wasn't supposed to see. i rather i didn't see it, at least i wouldn't be upset.

went shopping with jasmine and huimei yesterday night, daddy picked us up at kovan and on our way home, i had to see him with another girl. i was sure it was him. but somehow he denied it. wad could i do? i couldn't quarrel with him arguing that i saw him with another girl. i didnt tell him wad i saw, but i told him i THOUGHT i saw him. huimei called, thinking that i'll be crying bitterly. nah. i finished crying long ago, and tot that i was dumb to actually cry for him. wasting my tears. i was so happy, thinking that this year, we didnt quarrel at all and things were better. that we went out and stuffs. but somehow i guess heaven is making a fool out of me.

huimei talked to me for quite a while, asking if i still wanna trust him. the last time, yeeping told me abt him, i chose to trust him. then someone else told me sth and i didnt believe him anymore. till this year, both of us cooled down, and i chose to trust him again. now, this time i saw it with my own eyes. wad m i supposed to do? i can't go to bed pretending i didnt see a thing. i can't do it.

i guess i'll stay away from him for this period of time, till my o's over.

going out for lunch with jasmine. going to fareast for sushi, after that i'll go to hollywood secrets to pay the deposit for hair styling and makeup. m i suppose to smile and behave as if nth is wrong? i dunno.

i'll stop here for now. gotta get back to my books after lunch. sighs.

2005-10-07T00:55:00.000-07:00

been two weeks since i blogged... unbelievable. it felt like decades, but it's only two weeks.. weird huh? i can't really recall what i have been doing for the past week.. let me think.. oh yeah i gotten my prelim results, with L1R4 22. -_-!! where the hell can i go with that? well..

went shopping with vanessa last sunday.. bought a top.. i love it. hahas.. after that met up with ming kai for a movie. the movie was alright. yupp. after that went home.. these few days.. waste my time to go sch. i wouldn't sae all the lessons r wasting time la. but lessons like geog.. obviously wasting my time.

tml is wasting time again, 5 periods of d&t. decided not to turn up. since i've got slight flu too.

talking to ming kai, jasmine(when she is jux next door) and huimei. just crapping ard. hehe.. tml going huimei's hse for tuition.. lalala..

been talking to huimei. she guessed that he wants me back. but i dun have confidence in him. for all the things he did. seriously, i can't. if i were to break down again cuz of him, i can assure myslef. i no need to take o level already. cuz i cant concentrate. still think it's better this way, that we r still frens, at least he makes me laugh, care for me at least as a fren. it's more than enough. =)

2005-09-24T15:00:00.000-07:00

haven been blogging for like.. almost 3 weeks.. yupp.. wad have i been doing? wasting my time? hmm.. not really.. done with prelims, one major thingy off my back.. next, is the long awaited for, o level.. i sound like im looking forward to it eh? kinda.. cuz i wan to be freed from books, stress and nagging. =) this is gonna be a long long long entry, cuz i dunno when's the next time i can blog.

this year really slipped past jus like a few minutes when it's like months have passed.. yupp.. it wasn't too long ago when i was jumping around, thinking o's is still far away. now it's only a month away. after 22nd nov, i'll be as free as a bird! haha.. wad a way to describe. yeah wadever.. hmm.. my one month break is coming soon.. and i'll be nerding away at home.. yeah.. im a nerd.. wad can u expect from me? monday we will be getting our prelim results and i already expected it to be like shit, cuz it wasn't easy. i DID study, so even if i didnt do well, i will not cry, saying i regret. i WILL NOT. heard frm the teachers that the whole of graduating classess didnt do very well.. hmmm.. wan the sch to be value added? uh uh... gotta wait for the next batch. pinning hopes on my batch is the most foolish thingy to do. =)

huimei is concentrating on her grade 6 theory.. so she can't help me as much.. now, mingkai is helping me, but he oso has his dragon boat training.. -__-!! yeah yeah wadever, i'll see who is free to help. yupp.

everyone is so busy nowadays.. zzZz.. it's so hard to even get some1 to accompany me go town... -.-!! i dun feel like blogging anymore.. yupp.. byebye!!

2005-09-24T14:38:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2005-09-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

and.. a big THANK YOU to those who wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. =))

1. harris
2. justin tan(ACSB)
3. ming kai
4. huimei ( the only one who wished me at 12am)
5. kelly
6. eugene ong
7. cristabel
8. ming kai once again.. ( lol)
9. big aunt
10. huiling (pri sch fren)
11. peijun
12. julia
13. qiujin
14. evelyn
15. small aunt
16. elin
17. jennifer (bel's NCO fren)
18. shirly(band junior)
19. jacqueline
20. wei hsin
21. jiban (trumpet junior)
22. joanne (trombone junior)
23. chermaine (flute junior)
24. noorima(clarinet junior)
25. KImberly (friendster fren)
26. fiona (pri sch fren)
27. vanessa lim maisy
28. jesmine(another friendster fren)

2005-09-04T10:58:00.000-07:00

it's been two days since my birthday, haven been blogging cuz i wasn't allowed to use com.. yupps.. now im using the computer in elin's room while shes at church.. got a few presents, better than last year though i received more presents last year.. haha.. but it's all soft toys and stuffs frm last year.. yupp.. this year.. more useful things.. bags.. accesories and things like tt.. was looking at old pics over the years.. looking at how i've changed.. lols.. quite amusing actually.. from a toot toot sec one to a rebellious sec two.. to a playful sec 3 and now back to a nerd sec 4.. lolss.. saw some band pics, and him with his saxophone, suddenly feel like seeing him play again.. hmmm... i got wad i wanted this birthday.. though the way he rmbed my birthday wasn't too.. sincere, but he did.. thats wad matters.. =)) he said he promise to get me a present next time.. i laughed, not cuz im happy. but im upset. i found it ridiculous. cuz he always make me promises, but he NEVER keep it.. never did.. i rather he didnt promise me anything. greater hopes, higher chances of being disappointed..

prelim is jus round the corner, the more stressed up i am.. i tried the 2004 chem prelim paper. i flunked it.. =s huimei said cuz i didnt study for it.. yeah i didnt.. i didnt try to study.. studied phy instead.. -_-!! well.. but i did attempt the questions. i didnt give up on the questions, i tried to rmb as much as possible.. prelim starting on the 12th, with my Maths paper 1 and Social Studies..

going Crystal Jade for lunch with daddy,mummy,elin,keith,jasmine and treddy.. to celebrate my belated birthday.. going to school tml.. need some help for my accounts work.. yupp.. will drop by band after that.. was talking to huimei last night, i was saying.. i wonder why r we alive, living our life the same everyday.. it's boring.. no excitement.. we're born, we grow up, meet the special one, get married, give birth,grow old and die. aren't we like animals? just that our life span is much longer.. i wonder if i'll feel anything when i die.. hmm..

i guess im more or less ready for prelim? just need some 'polishing'.. yupp.. qiujin and justin gonna treat me for my birthday.. hahas.. i'll stop here for now.. perhaps i'll blog some other time when i get to use the com.. =)) take care my frens.. and to those taking prelims with me, all the best.. =))

2005-08-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

m i giving myself too much stress? a few of my teachers r saying so.. miss kodi said i need a break.. but i still think im not ready for prelim.. if i take a break, i will not be able to make it.. =( had extra lessons today again, but i feel that the lesson on mon was better, as we were separated.. not that im mean, but i could better that way.. it's the best for me. i had to be selfish. it's already nearing to the end of the month, 3 more months to o's , i can't afford to stop by and wait for my friends. i AM selfish u can say so, but i had to move on for my own sake. i dun mind helping them, if it's within my ability. but if u want me to help yet u urself dun wanna help urself, theres nth much i can do. and i will not do it.

im feeling a change in myself. i feel so selfish and cold towards all my friends. i refused to stop by and wait for them. i wan to go ahead with my work. feeling more distant from them, in thinking and physically. some of my frens think that it's only january and they have hell alot of time to start studying. im weak in practically EVERYTHING. be it maths,chemistry,physics or even humanities. i've been scoring a C6 for humans, which is ridiculous. i was told that we need humanities to get into poly. but i have POA to back me up.. to replace humanities. but come on, my POA is only a B4. how m i gonna get a A2 within 3 months?! -_-!! combined sci.. been scoring either a B4 or C5.. and im targeting a B3... seems possible. maths. the hopeless one. been scoring a E8 for that. wanna jump to B3. i still need ALOT more work. theres no time for me.

sigh.. off to do maths again. see ya folks.

2005-08-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

and jus in case some of u out there r wondering y im using this skin again, it's cuz i can't find nice ones.. haha.. any1 kind enough to help me get one, let me noe, i'll give u my user name and password. lols..

2005-08-22T18:29:00.000-07:00

today's extra lesson was great. all of us were kinda enthu.. haha.. on task. yepps..! hmm.. unlike my normal class, always fooling ard, distracting us.. =) hope these lessons will benefit me.. hee.. anyway, i jus bathed.... so god damn hungry la.. forgot to bring my wallet today.. haha! hmmm... i just cleared my wardrobe, so i need new clothes!! wee! those clothes r... haha.. i seldom wear em.. so i jus threw them out.. hmmm.. guess i'll bug mama to get me clothes.. hehe.. anyway daddy said sth weird yesterday.. i was using my camera, snapping away in his car... just taking weird pictures fom funny angles, but of cuz, im not professional.. haha.. just for the fun of it.. then he said, " since u like taking pictures so much, y dun u pick it up as a hobby? like really go and learn how to take 'gd' pictures." well.. i replied in a super sarcastic way.. " i have a hobby but SOMEONE doesn't approve of it!" haha.. i meant continue learning how to play euphonium.. lols..

my birthday is in10 days' time.. some of my fren r already asking me wad do i wan.. perhaps something cute? haha.. but no soft toys please.. i have lots of em.. wad i want badly, is clothes.. hahaha.. and accessories.. like necklace,braclet and things like tt.. =) theres sth i wan that no one can give me.. only one person can.. that's myself.. i wan gd results for o's.. haha...

gotta go do english for now.. =))

2005-08-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

been out for the day.. hmm.. went to aunt's place to see jing yi.. shes so small.. haha... anyway... i think she takes after my sister.. -_-!!

went to toa payoh central after tt, to walk ard.. daddy picked us up and went to hougang mall to get sth.. i bought a pair of jeans.. $50... hmmm feels so expensive.. normally my jeans cost only abt..$30? yeah.. haha.. my butt feels so expensive!! im sitting on $50.. crap.. well.. today we went to a coffeshop for lunch cuz daddy haven't had his, and theres this guy, poor service, sucky attitude.. when he served us, he kinda bang the plate on the table and snatch the money from mum.. i feel like punching him.. have the urge to tell him that he look like the pork chop.. stupid. ytd jasmine and i had the sudden craving for pizza, so we ordered a haiwaian pizza.. with stuffed crust.. hee.. quite nice.. =)) and the delivery man was quite friendly, good service attitude, unlike that pork chop asshole. he apologized again and again for being late, and even explained y he was late. at least he apologized.. unlike some ppl, doesn't apologize when they do the wrong things..

hmmm.. i hope im ready for prelim.. i jus dun trust myself.. today aunt spoke to me.. saying that since young i've been the one who is easiest to teach.. that i learn things very quickly.. and if im not so careless, i would get better results.. i dun deny that im rather careless, for example, i can actually write 25^-1/2 as 25^1/2.. -_-!! didnt see the negative sign.. lost some marks cuz of stupid mistakes like tt.. well.. i hope this prelim, i will not make the same old mistakes.. i will aim high..

gotta go to bed for now.. daddy isn't sending me to sch from now on.. have to walk to sch.. man.. i hate that.. haha..

2005-08-20T21:19:00.000-07:00

lack of sleep.. yaWns.. i thought that huimei's busy.. so im not going her hse.. well.. but i still went.. got there at ard 11.30pm.. and started at 12am.. ended at 4am.. slightly later than that.. yupp.. went to bed.. haha squeezed wif huimei on the bed since we're only slping for 2 hours.. lalala.. woke up at 6am.. went out for a morning walk.. returned at 7am.. bathed and went to sch.. watched the band do their morning exercise.. after the euphonium and french horn section went up to music room for sectional with sir.. saddening.. haha.. i could only sit at the back.. watch them play while i do my maths papers.. sir used my instrument since i m not playing.. and he said my instrument can be thrown away.. he says it sounds awful.. hee.. he sae " jessica, this instrument throw away then we buy new one ok?" yes yes yes!!! of cuz ok!! hahaha.. even if buy new one.. oso not mine.. =(( so sad.. well anyway.. i still played today.. only during the last one hour.. hmmm.. full of saliva.. -_-!! ewww.. im going to be soon.. hahaha.. im tired.. yeah!! tml can go see jing yi.. my new baby couz.. =)

2005-08-19T17:52:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. there might be no tuition today.. huimei is busy.. lalala.. anyway.. today we kinda touched our folio... then it was somehow like 5 periods? free for me.. =)) anyway.. miss kodi flared up at my class today.. saying that we r not appreciating the teachers' help.. hmms.. i agree.. well.. shall not sae much abt such stuffs.. after sch we had briefing on extra chemistry lessons.. 4E and 4F are sorted into two groups.. 1 and 2.. im in grp 2.. and im surprised, i belong to the so called better group, the grp which the teachers think that we r those who can progress faster,do better.. i hope they didnt make the wrong choice.. this reminds me of drills, when sir picked out some ppl and formed another squad, and i tot that i made mistakes.. haha.. so he wanted to train us personally.. but he said that he thinks we can do better than those he did not pick out.. aww.. those were sweet memories.. haha!

2005-08-18T15:36:00.000-07:00

i think that something is wrong wif my brain.. seriously wrong. i understand most of the lessons. like maths, chem,phy etc. but when it comes to doing homework or papers, it seemed so strange to me, like as if i 've never learned that topic before. wads going on with me? damn.. =(( i think i need a brain replacement.. hahas.. anyway.. miss yap finally completed the organic chem, and again, i understood her lesson, yet when i looked at the workbook, i went " huh? wad is that?" i need huimei's help agAin.. -_-!! im still not working hard enough.. i dun see improvement in my grades.. they're still the same.. it isn't huimei's fault, but mine.. im not practising enough..

i guess it's my attitude again, and i would sae that it applies to my playing too. y haven't i been improving? now both my juniors r even better than me. i didnt try hard enough. i gave up. it's my fault. i tot i've been practising, and would someday see the results.. but now, it doesn't seem like it.. im pracitsing blindly? perhaps.. anyway today miss yap said that some in the class is working by themselves and shes not worried abt them. and im surprised that she mentioned my name too. she says i have been working hard, and need more effort..

i look like someone without life... studying studying and studying.. theres nth else in my life besides studying. sigh... off to do compre.. studying AGAIN! awww.. im abt to go mad...

2005-08-17T20:04:00.000-07:00

lalala.. did i mention in my previous entry tt i've got my schedule for prelim? ah anyway.. screw tt. hmmm.. school hours have been kinda short for the sec fours, becuz theres no mock exams.. uhoo!! =) anyway.. i still reach home at 2.30pm everyday.. so wads the diff? anyway.. today daddy picked me up again, cuz i was lazy to walk home =) did my chem homework.. QUITE ok.. i realise tt im helpless without my notes.. haha.. i lent to siok hwee.. hmm.. taught siok hwee maths today.. jus a few simple questions.. haha.. thinking back on those days when i can't even do simple FACTORISATION.. *laughs*

i feel like laughing at myself for being so stupid.. bleah.. now tt i've 'mastered' it, it seemed so simple.. hee.. hmm.. anyway, i was talking to a friend abt relationship stuffs.. yeah.. and i thought abt how 'he' used to treat me, it's jus like how my friend's situation is.. hmm.. how alike! thinking abt that, i feel like an idiot.. man.. wad was i thinking then? hahas..

talking abt my preparation for prelim.. i dun think i am even half ready yet.. well.. theres still quite alot of things i dunno, or dun rmb.. dun mention abt o's when im not even ready for prelim.. at this rate im going, i dun even have to think abt going for the first 3 months.. im not interested anyway. i have no interest in JC, even if i can get in. if i can get in, it's a miracle! i should celebrate.. hahaa.. no more jokes man.. haha.. =)) been practising on chem and phy this two weeks.. phy more or less i got it.. it's just wif the formula thingy.. and the stupid radioactivity.. as for chem, i understand miss yap's lesson, and i could do the practice questions she gave us. but when it comes to doing wb, im clueless.. damn..

i need more practice.. hmm.. =)) humanities.. is my killer subject.. haha.. guess i'll get a 6? bleah..

2005-08-16T15:18:00.000-07:00

yipee! hahaha im gonna get my hair cut.. well.. i've been thinking of cutting it long long ago.. =)) going with jasmine and treddy next sunday... hmmm.. feeling much better today.. except tt last night i was coughing till i choked.. -_-!! anyway.. today's chemistry lesson was fun.. haha.. miss yap was teaching us abt organic chem AGAIN, and she told us about the material used to make uniforms in her time.. and the way she described, was really entertaining.. =)) enjoyed the lesson today, and copied some notes.. lent to siok hwee to copy.. lalala.. guess the only lesson i enjoyed today is only chemistry.. lol... the rest were... alritee.. hee.. miss kodi is absent today, but she said she wanted to scold my class for quite a number of things.. yupp..

gotta read up on wad i learnt today, in case i forget about it tml..

anyway, i find that my entries nowadays r getting shorter.. hahahah... im lazy to type, and theres nothing interesting abt my life.. =)

2005-08-15T15:52:00.000-07:00

aww.. i swear after this time, im not gonna take any cough syrup that is BITTER!! man... it sucks.. daddy bought me cough syrup, and it's awfuL!! ewwww... anyway... im feeling so damn sick the whole morning.. shuwen and bel said i looked pale when they saw me during recess.. nearly got choked by a sandwich during recess, cuz my throat is swollen.. then i have to keep chewing and chewing till it kinda become semi liquid..yucK.. painfuL.. huimei is having a sore throat too.. such a coincidence.. hmms.. =) i signed up for retaking chinese paper, in the hope of getting A2.. =) my teacher says usually, it's high chance that we will do better in the second paper than the first, provided if we study la.. duH.. hmmm... i didnt take mock exams today, was feeling damn uncomfortable.. so i went home.. daddy picked me up.. =)) and... daddy kept my honey stars away!! dun let me eat.. -___-!! humph.. i'll find it.. bleah.. hahahaha...

2005-08-14T16:46:00.000-07:00

it's been a few days since i updated, and many things happened.. well not too many, but one had a great impact on me. i got my o level results for chinese. it came as a shock to me. i got a b4 for my written paper. i didnt expect that, and i got a distinction for my oral, which was shocking as well.. well, im not gonna live in misery, complaining, i've learnt a lesson. this showed that i haven't been working hard ENOUGH. i need more practice. im not gonna keep whining, unlike others. =) gotta work harder than now. =)

went for my last practice on saturday, told huimei that i will not be going for saturday practices anymore, till my prelim is over, i will drop by a few times, then back to studying for o's =) i've been doing intensive science. haha.. impossible man.. jessica chan is actually studying science?! *laughs*

well, yes i AM studying science.. haven been touching maths for quite some time now, hope i dun forget how to do it.. hahaha.. cuz i can't afford to.. theres only abt 80 days to o's.. hmmm.. humanities.. im dying at this subject.. hahaha.. i gotta push myself harder, i feel that im still lazy, too slack.. =) gotta make use of every min, to study study and study...

went to my grandma' s house today.. studied physics there.. yes i mentioned about studying again.. so boring.. but i have to bear with it.. prelim is coming!! hehe.. oh ya!! my baby cousin, barely a year old, actually fought with me!!! i was eating some snacks... he wanted to eat(but he can't), so i purposely chew the snack in my mouth for him to see.. and he kinda scratch my face, started pulling my hair and stuffs.. so naughty.. anyway.. im dead tired.. zZzz.. so damn tired.. super tired.. aiya im jus tired.. hahaha... im lame as well.. hmmm theres school again tml.. and theres maths paper.. lets see if i'll pass.. =))

2005-08-11T16:44:00.000-07:00

made me feel so stupid.. english oral today.. guess i didnt do well, and so i dun expect gd results.. gotta try harder in my papers then.. yupp.. i tot it's jus me, being kinda lousy wif english,not able to express myself with words.. but it seemed like a few of my frens found it difficult too.. well.. it's over anyway.. just spoke to justin earlier on, and yupp he had exactly the same passage,picture,conversation like mine.. hmmm... it's not easy.. stupid topic.. wad a topic they chose.. =(

talking abt going to JC,is a NO NO and NO to me. not to me, i mean, i've never thought of going there.. since i entered secondary school, i've never thought of going jc.. well perhaps once or maybe twice, but my main aim is still going to poly.. i used to be so so so stupid, thinking " yay!! go poly no need wear uniform" wad the hell m i thinking? lolss.. but now.. i still think poly suits me better, in terms of.. stress? haha.. i think the GP in JC is enough to kill me.. especially when im some1 who don't like to read the newspaper, watch news on tv etc.. i would say, different ppl has different thinking, of where we wanna go, abt our abilities.. (so,justin stop saying tt i should go to a JC.. hahaha..) well.. perhaps if i can make it to the JC after my prelim results r out, i might give it a try... who knows? but still right now, my mind is on poly... =))

ok and dumb enough, i was so anxious to get my Chinese o level results, in the end it's only gonna be released tml.. =(( i have only got 88 days more.. to o level.. it's so fast, to think it's only last year when i was thinking, still long la.. o level still far away.. now.. it's only 88 days more.. =) alrite i 'll stop here for now.. off to study chem.. =)) [ huimei and justin, dun assume i only do maths.. haha ]

2005-08-10T13:47:00.000-07:00

yupp.. woke up at ard 11.30am.. hehe.. slept late ytd.. ard 3am.. studied chem.. oh no.. been ALMOST a week since i touched maths.. guess i'll do some tonight.. hee.. anyway.. i completed revision for abt.. 5 chapters? still think im kinda slow.. yeah.. should push myself even harder.. =)

doing to ronald's hse later.. haha do d&t.. perhaps staying there for dinner.. his mama ask.. lalala.. yummy.. =pPp i sound like a greedy pig.. hohoho.. i need more time!! argghh.. not enough time to study.. =(((( feel like dying... lalala.. tml chinese o level result release.. got a hunch tt i'll get a 3 or 4.. sigh... and.. tml is english oral.. hope i will do well..! i will.. definitely.. =)

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2005-08-10T00:45:00.000-07:00

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2005-08-09T23:14:00.000-07:00

watched charlie and the chocolate factory with huimei today.. and guess wad.. hahaha.. the girl beside me toppled my cup of drink.. and she was stunned, staring at me, dunno wad to do.. then i smiled and sae.. nvm nvm.. haha! she looks like im gonna eat her up.. the movie isnt tt bad.. not very childish.. but for those who dun like the imaginery,dreamy stories, i dun recommend u to watch this =)

aww... i am suffering from short term memory loss.. hahaha.. i always forget wad i wanna say, wad i wanna do... maybe one day i will forget how to play euphonium too.. =) crap.. how can i forget hat?! perhaps i'll forget some fingering.. thats possible!! thats wads happening now!! hahaha.. hmmm... today huimei and i attempted to watch the fire works.. but.. too crowded.. nvm.. haha.. we walked for an hour.. lalala.. then dropped by j8 for coffee before heading home.. reached home ard 9 plus.. lalala.. we took 58.. hmmm... more convenient for me now, no need to take 53 and walk for like damn long la.. haha!

today is 90 more days to o level, and im not even ready for prelims which is in abt a month's time.. wad m i gonna do?=( well.. i AM studying alrite.. hahaha.. perhaps im not studying smart enough.. or i am progressing too slowly.. i must work even harder.. in less than 100 odd days i will be free from books!! for the moment i mean.. haha.. i still wanna go poly la.. =)) after O's is working time.. work work work.. off to study chem.. see ya peeps..!!

2005-08-08T19:08:00.000-07:00

i simply dun believe this kinda chinese god crap, and i definitely didnt say i believe in Jesus either. im neutral. she just dun understand,when i say i dun want to quarrel with her. i just shut up when she started saying me abt my concept abt not believing in the chinese gods. and say that im ignorant. i dun give a damn about it, so i told her : " i dun wanna quarrel with u. wads said cannot be taken back" and she's bloody hell unreasonable. keep yakking about y i must say those things. she just dun get it. WADS SAID CANNOT BE TAKEN BACK. then i argued wif her, she says tt im like my elder sis, always arguing, trying to be smart when i know nuts. yes i admit,im still young and dun noe much. but it is my choice, to believe it or not. u CANNOT force me. when i argue, she says my attitude is bad. then i said, if u didnt insist on aruging with me, u wouldn't hear me aruge, and i wouldnt HAVE ARGUED. at this point, she says it again. " u dun admit u r wrong. u dun admit that u shouldnt hav said that" oh fuck. cant u understAnd?! to me, it isnt wrong, cuz i DUN BELIEVE. so i said, i've have said it,u can't ask me to say " oh srry gods i shoulndt have said it" please. thats crap. i dun give a damn. she says, if u dare, dun even come out of ur room for dinner. u think i care? i dun.

enough of stupid matters like tt. today's celebration was BORING. wet weather programme.. =(( only play a slow march and national anthem.. yeah yeah.. got lotsa pics.. band memebers who wants it.. get from me. =) i shall stop here. i dun wanna blog anymore.

2005-08-06T14:52:00.000-07:00

it's a rare saturday afternoon,im home so early.. im tired.. so i didnt go for lunch wif huimei.. hehe..i bang seh her.. ooppss.. well.. anyway.. i stayed over at her house ytd night as usual, and i completed physics tys for light.. 1/4 on sound.. lalala.. my physics is terrible.. but wad she taught me ytd,i understood.. gonna read up again,jus in case i forget.. guess i'll do it later.. while waiting for my hair to dry.. yupp.. this morning we were supposed to wake up at 6? to go jogging.. but we overslept,6.40am then we wake up.. oopss* anyway we went jogging, around the estate.. i sweated.. *satisifed* =) lalala.. went back to huimei's hse,bathed and went to school.. monday is celebration day, and REALLY the last time i'll be wearing my uniform.. man, im gonna miss it so much.. hehes.. but when i think abt myself going into the band room as a graduate, i feel.. better.. hehes.. but might not be able to visitthem as much,i wanna work.. i need money =) intend to find a job in nov,in between my papers, so tt i can start work asap after o's.. =)

helped mandl wif the drills.. they were separated into small grps.. so i helped mandl's grp... all sec one and two there.. peijun tested them,wasnt up to standard,so only tt grp gotta run the field.. and as i promised them,if they have to run,i'll run wif them.. so.. yes i ran wif them.. hehes.. today.. practice.. started wif the scales,minor and major.. etc etc.. then we went thru the procedure for monday's parade.. after tt, we played POE ( prince of egypt). and.. we 'finished' it.. of cuz as usual, in between all sorts of mistakes.. haha!

had a gd lunch, and now im tired.. i can't take it.. slp so late this few days.. =S ytd me and huimei started revision at 8, stopped at 12am.. then we sat on the doorstep,chatted till 1am.. went up to her room, bedtime!! i fell aslp at ard.. 1am? or a few mins later... thurs night.. burn midnight oil,to complete my folio.. i went offline at 1am.. only fell aslp at abt.. 3 - 4 am.. lalala.. now, im going to bed.. it's bedtime for me!! *giggles*

2005-08-05T18:03:00.000-07:00

6pm.. going huimei house soon.. lalalaa.. today is a.. very hectic day.. yepp... rushed thru my folio.. and hey! guess wad? i finished it! aww.. wad a great feeling.. the 50 ++ pages of folio.. finally done! yupp.. asked miss kodi for more papers... i wanna try paper one.. she said she will give me on monday... ask me to take a break for the moment.. yupp.. i jus dun understnad some people.. wad should i say? better not.. =)) lalala.. im bored.. yaWns.. and tired... superstitions.. wad 7th month.. the ghosts r out etc... oh please.. let me run into one, perhaps i'll believe.. =) hehes.. and! it causes air pollution la.!! zzZZzz... imagine i have to inhale those ash all day long.. no way maN!! hee.. alrite i'll stop here for now..

2005-08-03T16:39:00.000-07:00

well.. today.. i feel kinda cheated again.. but nvm.. wad can i sae? i asked for this.. i deserved this.. but life still goes on.. =)) today.. theres this wind howling jus besides siok hwee beside me.. it was great.. but funny though,always happens during miss kodi's lesson.. hehe.. well..she allowed us to 'look' at the wind.. hahaha.. cuz my cls seemed so amazed.. well.. today is a.. short day.. yupp.. didnt have mock exams i dunno y, so i went home.. =) jus finish part of my d&t... moving on to my maths papers later.. my life is boring. shall stop here. =)

2005-08-02T22:13:00.000-07:00

today... had maths paper one.. first 6 questions still ok.. after tt... i dun need to sae i guess those who frequent my blog should noe.. haha! after that i called daddy to pick me cuz bel going heartland mall wif ning ying they all.. yupp. so i left first.. =) went home.. had a nice shower.. lalala.. then i went to complete my compre.. summary points written out,but wait tilll tml chinese lesson then write in summary form =) and also, i revised my chem.. wad miss yap taught today,and a few lessons back.. more or less understand the stupid topic.. no choice,for the sake of studying.. haha! lalala.. theres rehearsal tml.. but i dun think i'll wear band uniform like the others r going to, cuz i got sci papers tml.. god knows wad time it will end!! -_-!! but i think it's kinda... useless... after sch.. every1's tired.. mentally and physically.. still gotta go for exams... who can perform well? even if we can pass,it might not be the real standard of ours... lalala... i ironed my band uniform already.. gee.. scared tt i'll be lazy this weekend to do it.. hmm.. i've decided to go to the gym every weekend(either sat or sun) to do exercise.. im getting fatter and fatter from all the chocolates and chocolate biscuits mummy bought.. *laughs*

well.. i'll stop here.. =)) work hard peeps!! theres only 97 more days!! =))

2005-08-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

it's another weekday.. another day closer to o's!! haha.. had rehearsal today.. yupp.. shall not talk abt wad happened.. =) going for lunch or dinner wif evelyn and qiujin someday.. =)) been a long time since we catched up wif each other. =)) well.. i have nth much to say.. i m LAZY to blog.. hehe.. looking at last year's SYF pics.. LOL.. in the backgrd of a pic, i could see a patch of yellow,under the big digi clock!! thats us!! lame.. thats all for today.. seeya folks.

2005-07-31T20:20:00.000-07:00

been a "all books day for me.. yepp.. been at grandma's house the whole day.. well not really.. hahas.. and yes.. the time of the month is over, and the normal laughing and playful jessica chan is back here,once again.. hahaa.. lalala.. anyway, today i kinda completed my folio!! yay!! left wif the pics to send to hsin for printing.. yeepp.. tml.. another monday... have to wear tie... -_-!! nvm, it's my last year afterall.. haha!

studied physics again.. did my tys for two topics.. now is that stupid radioactivity topic.. i need help!! hee.. my prelims.. in sept.. jus after my birthday.. how much time do i have left to o's? damn.. only 99 days more to o level.. should i be celebrating cuz after that is the freedom i wan? or should i be panicking cuz i haven finished even 1/2 of my revision? let me think.. 50:50 la. hahaha..

i m starting o's on the 7th.. starting off wif E Maths paper one.. and social studies.. hmms..

99 days left... ONLY 99 DAYS!! people out there, if u haven started, it's time u start doing so!! yeah..

here's my schedule for O's..
7th Nov - E maths Paper One (8am), Social Studies(2pm)
8th Nov - Chemistry ( 8am)
9th Nov - English Paper One(8am),English Paper Two(10.15am),Physics(2pm)
11th Nov - E Maths Paper two(8am)
16th Nov - Geography(8am),Principle Of Accounts paper two(2pm)
17th Nov - POA paper one(2pm)
21th Nov - D&T(2pm)
22nd Nov - Science MCQ(2pm)

lalala.. no time no time!!

2005-07-30T21:46:00.000-07:00

it's 9.40am and jessica chan is awake.. unbelivable, cuz normally she wakes up only at noon on weekends.. well.. shes here blogging again, guess it's time of the month, feeling grouchy and stuffs like that, and of cuz, have quarrels here and there. but yupp! i'll be back to normal very soon. i woke up at 8.30am, which i said earlier is unbelivable. i cant slp till noon nowadays.. used to be able to slp till like.. 2 pm? and wake up for lunch.. i slept wif a mind full of probs, be it studies,friendship, or anything else. woke up wif a even heavier mind, feeling worst than ever. i dreamt of the uncle at Cheshire home, and i woke up.. realising how bad of me, not visiting him for months.. i really wan to.. but.. it's pointless for me to go alone.. cuz i cant do much. yeah wadever..

2005-07-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

i will make this entry a short and simple one, i dun wan it to be long winded. ytd, went straight home after sch sms ming kai then he say feel like watching movie,so we jus meet up and went for a movie. stealth. after tt i went to huimei's house,of cuz she wasnt too happy abt me going out wif him, and the same for bel. both r concerned, i understand. but still i guess i'll do wad i think is appropriate. talking to van(maisy) and she is the only one who understands wad i am saying. well. wad can i say..? it jus ain't my day. yupp. y is every1 saying that im stressed? i dun think i am. in fact i still think i am quite slack.

2005-07-27T22:23:00.000-07:00

miss kodi's gettin impatient wif my class.. and it's our fault.. stupid guys had to sae something which they think IS funny which actually isnt, and provoke miss kodi.. she always tell me.. " ur class ar.. dunno wad to do wif them.." this shows that even miss kodi is like giving up on our class already, cuz she's really clueless abt wad to do..

anyway.. i went home kinda early again today.. yupp.. and jus now jasmine and i brought min min down to serangoon gardens to the vet cuz theres this flesh like thingy hanging out of her left eye!! ewwww..gross.. looks scary.. i got a shock when i tried to wash her up... yeah we went down, but it was closed.. so we kinda hanged around there.. and theres this Husky... damn nice.. it's fur was like.. awwww... soft.. haha.. had a great time stroking it.. then i turned my back against it, it stood up and put its paws on my shoulders.. imagine how 'tall' it is!! it kinda scratched me thru my shirt.. -_-!! had scratch marks.. yeah wadever.. but it IS cute.. damn pretty.. jasmine got shocked when she tried to touch it, it whinned damn loud. haha.. like a wolf howling.. hees.. we brought min min home.. her eyes looked better.. perhaps cuz we let her walk ard the 'garden' yupp..

tml theres sch again.. my life is empty,boring,dead. everyday it's a fixed routine. go to sch,have lessons,after lesson,lunch,mock exams,go home,bathe,rest,study,eat my dinner then slp. it repeats day after day.. yeah im gettin bored of this life.. anyway.. oh yeah! i told mum i wanan hav a hair cut.. hehe... and shes like.. wad for? duh.. change my hairstyle? LOL... had this hair for like ALMOST two years.. *laughs*

gtg for now.. theres still school tml.. talk care my friends.. =)

2005-07-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

today.. jus let another day pass, without doing much i would say.. today i got a new maths paper from miss shim cuz i finished the previous ones she gave me.. =) so i would say im kinda 'ahead' of the class..

was speaking to some of the band members, they r kinda disappointing.. they dun follow rules.. including the com members.. wad is happening... aww.. lalalal.. heard from miss kodi that chinese o's results would be released ard 11 aug every year.. arrggs i hope i'll get my results only after my eng oral..(i've got eng oral on that day =Ppp)

im getting lazier to blog.. had lots of things in mind.. but yeah im lazy to type it out.. haha!! huimei, if u're reading, pls dun kill me.. cuz its almost 99% i will fail the paper.. it's so damn tough la.. the paper one is super easy.. but not the paper two..

going off for now.. yup..

2005-07-24T21:59:00.000-07:00

out for almost the entire day.. went to qiujin's house.. no. mac.. had lunch there,wanted to start work.. but it was too cold.. hahha.. that we cant write.. LOL.. went to her house.. but seriously, we didnt do any work i would say.. been long since we met up.. so we chatted for the whole afternoon.. =))

after that left her hse to go suntec.. wif dad and mum.. waited for elin,jasmine,treddy and keith.. treddy didnt come.. lalala.. left the 6 of us.. =) had kenny rogers.. or how u spell that i dunno.. hahah.. quite full..me and jasmine were like monkeying ard.. creating jokes.. laughing like no one's business.. hehe.. wanted to go shopping.. but it started to rain so we changed our mind.. so we went home.. yupp.. thats all for my day.. lalala.. =)

theres school tml,a weird thing. feels like i haven been to sch for ages.. haha..

im tired already.. hmmm.. should go to bed.. hees..

2005-07-23T20:05:00.000-07:00

JESSICA CHAN IS BACK!! im feeling much better.. not throwing up already.. yupp..

officcially completed my project, something off my back.. no doubt abt that.. hmms.. here to blog abt my day again, it's a long one.. yeah it truly is.. started off with d&t of cuz.. and yes, i jus said, i've completed it.. ran up to the band room, thinking that they are abt to pack up already.. haha! but they're still practising.. yeah.. stupid sec 1 took sijia's mouthpiece home, so sijia took mine.. yeah so again, i didnt play today..

left the band.. went for lunch wif huimei and joanna.. joanna left.. after tt huimei do her music theory while i did physics.. yupp.. WITHOUT her guiding me like a baby =pPp *huimei, $50 ar.. haha*

hmm.. after tt i went home... got home at ard.. 5pm? bought chips,fruit juice,fries,egg tarts.. heheh.. lalala.. im better already so i wanna eat.. =)) yeah so...

jus dun understand y some1 jus dun learn her lesson.. being to recall the times i was the uniform officer.. and how i aruged wif 'her' till i broke down.. cried and things like tt.. yeah..come to think of it.. kinda lame.. y did i cry? i felt.. useless as an uniform officer? yeah i sure did.. and im thankful to have such a supportive teacher in charge, miss lee who gave me support.. yupps.. hey!! y m i saying as if these r my last words? *hahas* well.. been thinking abt it.. i do hope one day she realise that it's not me picking on her, or anyone else.. it's her attitude,behaviour,words and the look on her face that turns others off.. i dun give a damn if she happens to read this.. cuz i can tell u. I AIN'T AFRAID OF U.. *evil grins* =Pp u've downgraded my uniform standards, and i officially 'THANK YOU' for that. u better shut ur mouth before i can't stand u and do sth abt it. u said ever since u've become the UO u didnt really break the rules.. oh yeah? come stand in front of me. i point out at least 3 places u're breaking the rules. idiott.

man.. im eating too much.. gotta control or else i'll become like some1.. right bel? *laughs*

2005-07-21T22:00:00.000-07:00

racial harmony day... isnt my day... i forgot i cant take spicy food..

anyway.. ytd.. the 20th.. went home at 8am.. daddy picked me up from sch and sent me to the clinic.. yupps.. as usual.. gastric.. was told not to take spicy food,sour,oily food.. yupp..

today's party.. i forgot i m not allowed to take spicy food.. i took curry.. felt terrible.. went to band.. i ran to the toilet and threw up.. after that went home.. ate dinner.. and threw up my dinner as well.. =((

perhaps im not going to school again.. im dying.. the doctor is my best fren for this year.. been to him for countless times.. haha... take care folks.. off i go.. =)

2005-07-17T22:04:00.000-07:00

guess my brain can't take it anymore.. with all the crap inside.. and here i am trying to stuff more things in.. really can't memorise things as well as i used to.. well anyway.. ppl out there.. taking o's.. it's almost 100 days left to o's.. yupp.. so start revising if u haven..

today.. let me think.. wad hav i been doing? i woke up at ard 11am.. jasmine and i took our lunch and watched a movie.. at home i mean.. yeah.. after that we studied in mum's room.. i complete another Emaths paper.. but i feel im getting more dumb.. like, the more i do, i should improve.. but i think im going down the drain.. can some1 help me? sigh..

i need a break, but i can't.. cuz i dun hav much time left.. especially when my basics r super weak.. i... arggs.. im being unfair to huimei... where shes trying hard to teach me... me myself didnt revise much on other days.. now tt i dun need to go for mock exams, huimei.. i promise u.. i'll revise more.. im not trying hard enough..

thurs is racial harmony day celebration.. haha.. huimei says im taking all her belongings.. quite true.. hehehe.. tml got sch.. gotta go already.. yupp..

2005-07-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

i thought that i have been good enough, obeying my mum, doing wad she tells me to. and yet this time around, it appears to be me at fault again.

she expects me to stay home and study. EVERY DAY. from now til o level. those who r reading this and taking o's or have taken o's. ask urself. how can 1 possibly stay home for 4 months and study continously without having a break like going out for a walk? impossible. for those who say u can do so, u're lying.

she promised that i could go out. yet i reminded her jus now. she said im not allowed to. and turn ard saying that i promised her i will study hard. yes i did promise that. but i didnt sae i will STAY HOME from now till o's. it is IMPOSSIBLE.

my sis had to rub it in, thinking that shes the oldest and hence can say wadever she wans. it's not that im unhappy for being scolded. or lectured. y cant any1 put themselves in my shoes and think how i would feel about it? think that o's is so damn easy? they think it's easy cuz their results have been stable all these while. for me, hav been failing maths and science since p4, it's 100 times harder. i know it's not any1's fault that i have such results, but PLEASE get lost. dun come and tell me how much hard work u put in and got wad results. im NOT interested.

it's always me.. yes yes yes my fault. u guys r the 'best'.

whnever anything goes wrong, it's my fault.

thinking that my stress for o's isnt great enough? u wanna add on to it? go ahead. if u're lucky, i might not bother abt u. if u're unlucky, i might jus shut u up. upon reading this, u may, or u WILL find me unreasonable, rebellious. wadever. i do not care abt wad u ppl out there think of me.

"it's ur future, not mine. "

how nice u put it. yeah? my future? think i haven been trying to work hard? haven been trying to improve? think im still like last year? heck care about everything? if u think it this way, ask my frens around me. especially my clsmates. wads the change in me? ask huimei abt it. she knows best. i wouldnt say i have been VERY hardworking. but at least i am trying. and i would say. much more hardworking than last year.

wadever it is, today isnt my day. can some1 tell me jokes? put a smile on my face?

2005-07-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

to start with some matter which irritated me for the day.. i couldn't taste a single damn thing.. i ate.. noodles.. i taste.. so bland.. it's like no seasoning and everything.. i ate sweets.. it was supposed to be sour.. i felt nth.. -_-!! i ate chocolates jus now.. no taste!! ah!! i miss my sense of tast or wadever u call it..

had chem and physics paper today.. shall not talk abt it.. very.. demoralising.. hahaha..

eh guess i'll stop blogging.. cuz i dun hav much to sae.. unless something really special happened.. so yeah...

2005-07-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

ok.. wads going on in my life?

yesterday.. was the best day of the week.. =)) had band practicE!! hehes.. played mainly marches.. national anthem.. yupp.. played a lil of prince of eygpt.. erm.. as i always sae.. i cant do sight reading.. so yeah.. i tried to play.. but got lost.. hahaha.. around bar 38.. i was like.. er.. where r they?? hahaha.. anyway.. lalala..

went for lunch wif huimei.. yupp... after tt had mac for dinner... hehehe.. hmmms.. at night.. used computer.. yupp... huimei called.. hahaha.. huimei huimei all day long.. oppss..*

today i woke up at 1pm.. was supposed to go to the home wif harris.. but he smsed me in the morning saying he not going his grandma hse so not going the home le.. well.. lalala.. kinda guilty.. haven been there since april.. it's like.. wad have i been doing these 3 months? wasting my life away.. rather than going there.. jus spending 2 hours of my week.. helping out.. oh man im so bad.. hmms... promise i'll spend more time there.. yupp... but not during o level that month la.. hahaha..

today.. i think i'll gain a few kgs man.. hahaha.. i ate noodles today.. a tub of ice cream.. KFC... bubble tea.. -_-!! ytd eat bak gut teh, macdonalds... omg!!! hahaha... anyway.. gotta go for now.. got sch tml.. yupp..

2005-07-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

ok, haven been updating for almost a months now.. yupp.. for ppl like huimei who likes to read blogs.. hahaha... now u got sth to read abt..

this whole holiday.. wad hav i been doing? i wouldn't sae tt im working very hard, but im not slacking too.. yupp.. this holiday.. went to cameron highlands.. yeah.. but i should sae i didnt learn much.. so.. after the trip.. went back to sch for my practical.. yeah.. i didnt finish ALL my homework, only abt 3/4 of it. yup. this holiday ended so quickly that i didnt even realise it was over.. i practised lotsa maths questions.. guess im kinda better at it now? hope so.. (or else huimei will kill me =Pp) a big thank you to huimei, sacrificed i would sae a lot of her time, coaching me in maths,chem and physics and even in life, when i dunno wad to do.. =) i owe u so much.. haha.. sch started.. having mock exams all the way till 22 july.. yup.. o's starting on 7th Nov... =) hope it ends quickly too.. yupp.. abt 4 mths left..!

we'll be joining the band for national day.. sec 1s cant make it.. -_-!! yeah so.. going back for practices!! hee.. i screwed up my mock exams.. i would sae it's every paper.. sigh.. everything seems so tough.. but still.. keep trying.. yeah.. tml.. theres d&t.. 5 period of practical.. guess i'll be rushing my project.. hope i dun get cut again.. haha.. d&t paper tml is cancalled.. so guesss it's either i'll wait for bel and company.. or i'll jus go home first.. see how tml..

and i jus dun understnad some ppl.. y r they so damn sensitive..stop thinking that me and bel(the two gals in ur blog) r trying to.. wadever u call it.. snatch? intruders? i dunno. we have NO intention of coming in between ur frenship, and PLEASE. u're sec 4. not pri 4. do u actually see any point in getting angry,emotional etc over such small matters? come on, we're like only having meals together and u think im trying to break ur clique up? how amusing.

wadever it is, any one taking o's this year but have not started studying, i suggest u start now. it's nv too late to try. at least u did try. instead of sitting there telling urself tt u'll fail. yupp.

yeah i'll continue my d&t tml night.. perhaps.. hahaha.. sweet dreams to every1 out there.. =))

2005-06-17T20:49:00.000-07:00

im back in singapore.. for like 3 weeks.? yeah ard there.. yupp..

but im not allowed to use com untill after my o's so yeah.. now im at huimei's hse blogging.. hehes.. actually theres nth much in my life to blog abt.. guess im closing this blog soon... yupp.. or maybe not..

well.. been a nerd these few days.. tot alot.. feared o levels... etc etc.. but yet im doing my homework... somehow.. i duno how to sae.. lalala.. at least i can manage the sums.. yyupp.. im bored..zzzz... no one talking to me..=((

wadever.. im going home soon.. yupp..

2005-06-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

yupp! im leaving singapore for good! no la.. jkjk~ going to malaysia with the sch.. yepps.. of cuz it cant be compared to other schs going to aus or wad la.. but still it's fun... hehes..

im gonna miss...
-my bed..
-HUIMEI(happy? =pPp)
-peijuN
-xiao bai..
-laptop..

hahas.. and my other frens too!! hey im dumb.. im only gonna be away for like.. 4 days? yeah.. i sounded as though im going away for 10 years! haha! lalala.. wadever... keep having this feeling tt i left something important out of my bag.. but still i cant rmb it!! how? hmms.. my passport is in my bag.. wallet's in there too.. my phone is charging.. my cam is beside me.. wad else?! oh my.. sigh..

was talking to huimei.. lalala.. she says she wanna see me back in one piece.. lol! i crapped wif her.. "i'll come back in many piece." haha! im lame.. i noe..

today went to band practice.. they started off wif drills... helped pj to teach the recruits.. well not really teach la.. but somehow 'scold' them.. cuz they were not serious.. and stuffs.. yepps.. can say i always scold ppl, but it's like if u didnt do anything wrong y should i scold u? im not mad.. anyway.. i skipped d&t today.. was really tired.. yeahs.. went for lunch.. then i needed to borrow shuwen's bag.. so i went to her hse.. in the end me and hsin fell aslp belbel using laptop.. and tt lameass cristabel ng.. took a video of me and hsin slping.. wad the.. -_-!!

hmms.. think i'll stop here for now.. see ya in 4 days time my frens! =))

2005-06-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

had a bad feeling all of a sudden.. that i'll get b3 for my chinese.. cuz i wrote out of point in paper one, and my paper 2 aint tt gd..

lets say if i get..
eng - c5
chinese - b3
POA - b3
E Maths - b4
Comb. Sci - b4

L1R4 will be like.. 19..!!.. wad the.. sigh... can only pray hard now, that my chinese will have a A2 at least.. and perhaps eng can aim for a b4.. and if im hardworkin enough... might strive for a b3 in maths.. hmmms..

oh yuck! i jus ate bird nest soup.. to be specific, ONE SPOONFUL.. it's so damn sweet,so weird taste cuz theres egg inside. who will ever have the weirdest idea to add egg to bird nest?!?! omg... i think im gonna throw up.. seriously..

there eng oral tml, i think im gonna flunk it.. yup..

2005-05-31T22:37:00.000-07:00

dunno wad got into me today.. i laughed non stop..

had lunch at KFC, and after i washed my hands, i slapped my hand onto cristabel's back.. and theres this big hnad print!! wahahaha... kept me laughing all the way from KFC to the third floor where i redeemed my digi cam de memory card.. yupp.. get attracted to this pouch meant for sony camera.. was hesitating between the blue and brown one.. hmm... anyway.. i took the brown one.. muacks i love it so much.. then bel sae i pamper my cam too much.. lala.. i should pamper it..

walked to seiyu, i dunno why.. and cristabel was so ENGROSSED in looking at the barbie dolls clothes.. wadever.. lolss.. lalala.. ran into justin and his fren when we were leaving seiyu.. hahaha.. then we went to OP... again, cristabel created jokes.. and i kneel on the floor laughing.. *giggles*

we were in OP... after that we left.. and tossed a coin to decided to go home or carry on shopping.. then the decision was to carry on shopping.. we went out from a entrance of op and went in to J8 frm another entrance..

bel: eh, we were in here jus now right? i didnt noe theres another entrance
me,hsin and shuwen laughed nonstop.. then one of us said.. luckily u didnt sae eh theres another OP.. LOL!! wad a joke... went to haagen daz.. haha.. ice cream!! theres this lil boi boi.. so cutee!! lol.. i took a pic of him.. haha! then bel wanted to look at the "Thomas and friends" the toy train thingy.. so we waited.. in the end it didnt com eout so we left.. haha..

went to the interchange.. me and shuwen went insane.. we waved at bel, then insisted tt bel was waving only to one of us.. haha.. how lame.. 53 came, we board the bus.. lol.. i ran to the back, looking out for bel... cuz her bus was like behind ours.. lalala.. i think some1 banged into me.. turned ard.. justin.. -_-!!

anyway.. reached home at ard.. 4 plus.. yeah.. nothing much to do oso... lalala...

tml is hell... 4.5hrs of d&t!! oh man.. poorr me... -_-!!

2005-05-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

i made a mess out of my o level chinese.. im so dead..

the paper 1.. letter writing.. i tot the letter is regarding tv programme, so i wrote it this way. after the paper then i realised it should be written to the radio station.. -_-!! im dead. totally out of point.. im finished.. kill me la.. sigh... anyway.. i tried uploading a few pics frm my digi cam into the laptop.. quite alright.. yupp.. i didnt bring my phone today... yeah.. went to j8 today.. shuwen lost her IC... shucks... then we went ard looking for it... so i didnt get to redeem my memory card.. so.. nvm shall go tml... having mock exams tml.. crazy.. yuck.. where got mood to do? siao..

reached home ard 3pm... dad is at home.. elin is home too.. mum isnt home yet.. so yupp.. i went into my room... dropped my bag.. looked at my phone... saw 1 sms received.. opened it.. from justin.. asked abt my o's.. argggg... dun talk abt it already.. the more i sae the more pek cek i get.. nvm... had a nice cooling bath... settled down in my room, trying out my camera, how to upload the pics..

lalala.. gonna watch tv soon... can i not get my results? yuck.. i feel like dying thinking abt my mistakes.. arghh!!

2005-05-29T18:29:00.000-07:00

im gonna get a digital cam.. yupp.. =))

but im giving up my mp3 in return.. cuz i still have my euphonium to save up for.. so.. yeah.. guess my mp3 gotta wait..

going off now.. for my digital cam!! hehes..

stupid justin, im not a kid.. im almost 16!! u hear that? lolss..

2005-05-29T17:45:00.000-07:00

Rob Thomas - Lonely No more

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way?
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
Well I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
Now it's hard for me
When my heart's still on the mend
Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it's harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can't we just try?
I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely anymore
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
What if I was good to you?
What if you were good to me?
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me?
What if it was paradise?
What if we were symphonies?
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you?
I don't want to be lonely no more
I don't want to have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
It's just another heartache on my lis
tI don't wanna be angry no more
You're the one who could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely any more
Ooooh Oooooh Oooooh Ooooh
I don't wanna be lonely any more
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna be lonely any more

2005-05-28T17:22:00.000-07:00

today.. is chinese day.. idiott.. studied sec 1 & 2 chinese words.. yupp.. today.. nth much la.. hehehes..

talking to sotong now.. lol.. telling her abt ytd i cut jin wei hair by accident.. lol.. it WAS AN ACCIDENT!! lol.. i didnt mean it.. well.. i WAS fooling ard with the scissors la.. but didnt mean to cut his hair by tt much!! lol.. guess he must be cursing me now.. ooppss.. =)) going for steamboat dinner later on.. yupp.. oh yeah!! the cheese cake elin made was... woo! wonderful.. lolss.. very cheessy!! but i like.. hehe..

steamboat.. hmm.. wad can i eat there.. lalala.. i cant eat seafood.. hmmss.. =)) lalala.. monday... must do well..

wish those ppl out there.. taking chinese o's on monday... all the best!! yupp..

2005-05-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

wow.. i was too bored.. so i decided to check out the hotels we're staying at in malaysia.. it's cool!!

Century Pines, Cameron Highlands
http://www.hotelreservation.com.my/hotel/cameron/century.htm

Grand Seasons, Kuala Lumpur
http://www.pinganchorage.com.my/malaysia_hotel/kuala_lumpur_grand_seasons_hotel.htm

hehes.. i prefer the cameron highlands one.. have a more.. wad feeling is that.. i dunno how to sae.. feels more like home.. =))

2005-05-26T20:04:00.000-07:00

as usual i fell aslp during chinese intensive.it's was cold and so i fell aslp.. so comfortable.. =))

hmms.. today really slacked throughout.. not cuz i m too proud to listen.. cuz i feel slpy.. hehes.. i dreamt of some1.. but i didnt rmb his face.. weird eh... anyway.. today.. had briefing on the malaysia trip... the tour agent was.. arggg... so.. arrogant.. and.. so b*tchy.. yuck.. *ihu.. lolss.. lalala.. after tt went home wif bel,shuwen and wanling.. nth much... lalala... =))

2005-05-25T21:59:00.000-07:00

today.. i fell aslp during chinese intensive again! =)) hehe..

went to band store.. took out my euphonium to practice... but somehow.. i jus left it there and played the trumpet!! LOL... lalala.. i suck at trumpet.. bleah... accompanied peijun and ling mei to wait for daniel.. he coming back to teach ling mei the mace thingy.. hehes.. =))

after that went home wif kelly, choon wei and joie.. was so tired today i dunno why.. hehehee.. hmm.. i did some of my maths homework.. about 20 questions.. yupp.. kinda contented... was chatting with bel.. abt watching madagascar... but she said she watching wif her NCO frens.. asked if i wanna watch can join them.. yeahs if they dun mind me going.. perhaps i'll go.. but.. i have no time... should i watch b4 my o's? or after? if i watch b4 o's i might be able to make it.. cuz after o's..

31st may - eng mock exam
1st June - eng oral
2nd june - d&T
3rd - 6th - malaysia...

where got time... hmmss... i think i should watch b4 o's... hmmss..

2005-05-24T18:55:00.000-07:00

i fell aslp during chinese intensive.. dots.. hees..

my results are dropping like mad. especially my humans and chinese. -_-!! chinese. unbelievable. im actually getting poorer results. oh my god.. hmms.. a A1 or A2 isnt quite possible now. but i'll still try.. bleahs..

this common test, i failed EVERYTHING. except d&t,POA and chinese. but chinese results aint satisfying.. yeah so.. wadever..

maths - 13/40 ( worse than Common test 1.. )
phy - 25/50
chem - 14/50
social studies - 6/25
geog - 21/40
eng - i dunno yet but it is 100% fail..lol..
d&t - 28/50 (biggest surprise ever)
POA - i cant rmb but i passed
chinese - 64/100.. disappointing.. but i didnt study so i deserved this..

well.. ytd had a short conversation wif qiujin on the phone.. she was saying.. ever since 'he' came into my life, im like not even looking at other guys or wad.. as if 'he' is the only guy.. but.. haha! i dun think so now.. im starting to think that he is boring.. wad can i sae? facing him for 4 years.. duh.. im bored already.. i mean liking him for 4 years is such a chore.. so.. i think theres no more xing xian gan.. loL!! those who dun understand, srry i dunno how to translate.. =P

lalala.. but it's like.. those guys ard me.. who can really communicate wif me, it's either that they r jus my gd brothers? or i have no interest in them.. hahaha.. lalala.. oh no.. theres one..!!.. my xiao bai!!.. nah im crappin..

jus now i went home wif cristabel.. accompanied her to the interchange.. (usual routine) and after that i went home... such a borning life eh? i cant help it la.. =))

had dinner ytd.. at some kinda restaurant.. at first i was too pissed off to eat.. but still, i ate some.. in fact i was so fed up, i kept gorging my self wif food... (poor food) after that i asked for dessert. but they dun serve dessert. so i asked daddy to drive us to swensens. ate a huge cup of ice cream. *satissfied* yummy..

this morning i took quite a long time to wake up.. too tired. and i slept late.. to me is late la.. =) im feeling so bored now.. theres homework.. but.. i dun feel like doing... =(( cristabel is offline... vanni is offline no one let me disturb.. eugene tt pig is online but nv talk.. -_-!! hsin is offline too.. pajiao oso offline!! y is every1 offline when im on?!!! how unfair..!!!.. =x

shall stop here..

2005-05-24T18:40:00.000-07:00

who r u to even think u can control my life?

it's my life, i do wadever i wanna do. dun u even think of ordering me abt like a puppet. im NOT.

hypocrites,backstabbers i have seen alot. but nv one like u. NEVER. stop being a hypocrite in front of me, or my frens cuz im sick of it. i dun confront u or anything not cuz im afraid of u. u noe sth? it doesnt pay to be kind. qiujin is right. even if it's not my fault, the other party starts going ard twisting facts, it would end up that im the bad one.

im used to playing the bad guy role, it doesnt matter. but i wan u to listen up. jus shut up and get out out my life. shoo. u dun have to noe that i am talking abt u. and im not interested if any1 tells u anything. i dun give a damn. jus get lost.

2005-05-23T16:10:00.000-07:00

well.. im bored so here i am blogging away..

now.. talking to 3 guys.. (where r all my girlfrens???) lolss.. eugene,justin and chuen shoon.. hmms.. i haven started doing my chinese homework.. dun feel like doing.. like do le oso no use... teachers oso like nv go thru it.. so? wads the point.. =))

i wasted my day away.. by eating non stop.. woke up at 12 noon.. cooked pasta for lunch.. and soup.. shared among me elin and jasmine.. =)) after tt we ordered pizza.. so full... then i ate apples.. gummy sweets.. mentos... im mad i ate so much..

ytd went to hsin hse.. quite fun.. oh man i love her condo.. lol! hmmmm... but some1 kinda spoil my mood.. so.. wadever! lolss..

got home kinda late.. went online.. chat till almost 1 then i went offline.. feeling kinda ferverish.. =)) think cuz i played wif water and walked ard in my wet clothes in the wind? maybe.. lolss.. eugene tt pig cooked so much food.. and cyndee(i dunno how spell) asked me finish all the chicken wings.. -_-!! well.. i ate lots of it but i didnt finish.. went home at ard 10 ++ reached at abt 11pm... yawns..

now.. maybe i'll do some of my homework later on.. hmms.. see how lor.. =)) im tired again.. too lazy to blog..

2005-05-22T00:20:00.000-07:00

it's 12.14am and im still wide awake.. thinking of... myself.. wad da hell m i saying? LOL!

my frens r all offline.. besdies justin.. still hanging ard.. lolss... wad o lousy librarian he has.. poor thingy.. =)) im bored, but i cant fall aslp!! arggg.. wad is happening to me uh?

we're going to hsin hse tml!! yipee!! fun fun fun.. hmmmss.. =))

i have nth to do.. can any1 suggest anything...? =((

2005-05-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

hmms.. wow.. i woke up so early toda? hahaha.. why is that so? cuz i cant slp.. duh... lols..

hmmm... i slept cuz 'early' actually.. i slept at ard 4am.. wanted to slp at 10pm... but i kept rolling ard my bed.. lols!! then i was so bored, decided to turn on my hp.. then here comes all the smses.. hahah i only turned it off for like.. 20mins? lols... julia,justin,mingkai smsed me... and 1 more i couldnt recall who.. lol! hmmm... replied justin only.. cuz mingkai and julia jus wished me gd nite... then a number tt i didnt noe called me.. then i was like.. huh? who r u? then it was justin.. pathetic.. hahaha.. he was feeling so bored so he wanted me to entertain him.. (right justin? =pPp) then 'some1' had to keep correcting my pronunciation.. nvm.. i admit tt my english aint tt powerful.. so.. hahahaha.. talked till abt.. 12plus... hung up.. i went out to the living room.. disturb my xiao bai.. wahahaha!! then elin asked me go to her room to join her for a movie.. "Interview With A Vampire" she kept telling me i watched it before.. but i cant rmb.. weird uh?? she said she watched it when she was ard pri4.. wad the! she primary 4 im only in kindergarden!! how m i suppose to rmb? hahaha.. anyway.. it was quite interesting.. the language, the words and everything.. hmms.. yupp.. after tt elin went to bed.. left me alone.. feeling so bored.. tt i kept waking the house like a wandering soul..!!.. hmmss. guess it's kinda quiet without tt rabbit chan at home uh? wadever~

today i wanted to go rollerblading/cycling with qiujin and evelyn.. sadly eve couldnt make it.. then qiujin said postpone till after chinese o's ba... then justin asked me join him and his frens for a movie since i got nth to do.. hmmm.. there goes my homework day.. lol! anyway i wun be studying at home.. i'll be eating non stop.. =p

yay!! tml going hsin hse.. lalala.. wonder wad is a wuya(crow) hse like uh? geez.. lalala... man i love her present so much that i feel like keeping it for myself.. (how stupid can i get? =p)

mama and papa is off to work.. rabbit isnt home.. elin is slping like a pig.. y m i up so early..?!! i cant slp.. arghhss.. nvm.. lalala.. think of sth better to do then.. -__-!!

2005-05-19T22:20:00.000-07:00

just another day, a simple one..

the first day of the intensive programme.. it was freezing cold in the AVA room.. we didnt understand y did they arrange for it to be like Sec 4E,5A,5B to be a grp, and the rest another grp..

today me,julia,joyce,siok hwee rushed to causeway point after sch.. we were late for the movie.. cuz we missed the two buses.. and waited quite long.. -___-!! wanted to take cab but decided to take train since we will be late.. watever.. the movie was alright.. quite nice.. i liked it.. lols.. stupid justin (han renguang, i not saying u. lolss) sae not nice.. -_-!! hmmss different taste i guess? yupp.. after movie we rushed to the toilet..!!.. loLss!! after tt we wandered into a shop.. got sticked to a machine.. cuz we wanted soft toys.. blehs.. i wanted the zebra!! it's so freaking cutee..!! but julia,joyce,siok hwee all agreed on a pig..? i think it's a pig. loLss.. kinda cute too.. but i tot the zebra was more adorable.. yuppie.. after tt we went downstairs to take neoprints.. only 1 or 2 looked alright.. n_n they rest... i shall not say.. =))

i bought a billabong wallet.. it caught my attention in the display cabinet.. so i asked siok hwee to cometake a look.. then julia came over.. both agreed tt it's prettie.. =)) i didnt think much.. jus bought it.. hehhe.. since i've been aiming a wallet for quite some time now.. i think since last month..! =pPp it's pink in color.. theres grey and white too.. but tot tt pink would be nice since i hav few pinkish stuffs.. so yeah.. joyce bought a belt.. looked cool.. yeah! walked around.. went to e base.. julia trieda few tops.. look nice on her.. but she didnt buy it.. god knowswad shes thinkin.. loLss..next to giordano.. the 4 of us squeezed into a really small fitting room to try on the tops.. joyce wanted to buy for the field trip.. geez.. i tried a top.. me and siok hwe liked the same ones.. ;) of cuz different size la.. duh..! but i didnt buy cuz i didnt have enough cash..

tml.. dunno jinwei they all wanna go buy the electronics ma.. if they dun wan, i'll go shopping on my own... lolss.. no la not shopping.. jus going ard to get some stuffs.. yeah.. and zhi how's present.. i still dunno wad to buy for this small boy boy.. hmms.. will think abt it tml.. =))

oppsie.. it's such a long entry!! hmms.. si huimei.. so long nv talk to me.. got miss me? blehhss.. i noe u always peep at my blog one right? hees.. wait till my o's over.. we'll go and hav fun..!! oh no.. u'll be starting sch yeah? loLss.. all da best!!

peeps out there who r taking ur o's this year, i wish all of u the best!! =)) doesnt matter if u're jus someone passing by my blog.. my wishes r for u too! =)

2005-05-18T19:48:00.000-07:00

lols.. i finally got my way after a long 'discussion' wif my mama.. hehee..

she promised to buy me a mp3 and sponsor me a little for buying my euphonium!! yippee!! hmmss... i told her tt if im satisfied with my o's chinese results i will award myself by buying a mp3 for myself.. =)) but if it's not satisfying, i will wait till feb when i get my results.. if it is gd enuff, she will buy for me a mp3 and sponsor me.. =)) yay!!!

today me,hsin,bel,meiting,shuwen went j8 to get presents... hmmmss... had long j0hn for lunch cum dinner.. hehehe.. sun going wu ya hse. yippee.. fun fun fun..!...

gtg now.. watching tv.. =))

2005-05-16T18:47:00.000-07:00

http://www.class-pictures.com/cjbands/sec/041305/p063peicai/p063peicai.htm

pictures of SYF!!uhoO!!

2005-05-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

today is another monday, and those who reads my blog often will realise i hate mondays.. why is that so? because there's 5 periods of d&t on monday!! arghh.. i dun hate mondays that much in the past cuz though i have d&t lessons, but there's band practice.. now theres no more practice.. so i hate mondays even more..

went to mac after school for a snack of ice cream and fries with cristabel.. on the way we saw quite alot of band members.. i tot there's no practice today.. i asked them.. then they still laughed and said tt they skipped practice.. sigh.. wad a disappointment...

thurs we're going to watch the movie "Coach Carter" tickets provided by sch.. lolss.. friday going out to buy electronics with jin wei, liang jie and hafizah... hope can get wad we want.. =))

stupid jin wei.. mentioned about steamboat.. suddenly got the craving for it le.. lol.. find someday go there eat.. =))

going to hsin house on sunday... lol.. hse warming.. lalala... go disturb her!:P lalala... hmm.. waiting for jo to call tonight.. abt sat wanna go out.. hmms.. feeling kinda slpy.. yawns.. =))

2005-05-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

hmmm... been decades since i updated.. ok la.. im exaggerating... it's only been 10 days.. i've got my prelims results.. for paper two i didnt do very well.. but managed to pass though.. yupp.. got my maths results.. i failed.. -_-!! disappointment.. hmmm.. english no need to say i sure fail.. i didnt noe tt was persuasive... so.. yupp.. im dead.. 15 more days to o's... intending to start on the 20th for my revision.. hmmm... gtg for now.. i need to rush for d&t and english.. all the best for my POA tml.. lol.. and those who r taking POA and A Maths as well.. =))

2005-05-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

first thing of today... justin, if u're reading this, happy 16th birthday!! uhoo!! loLss... all the best =))

hmmm.. today.. let me think... shucks.. i forgot theres no dinner for me.. hehee.. pei bel go cut her hair.. me and hsin slack ard the salon.. lalaa... woo! now bel de hair so damn style seh... =)) tml is chinese prelims.. haven study yet.. lolss.. but! o level i wil study de.. i wanna get A1.. miss chan wans me to get A1 too.. hmm.. i'l try my very best.. as for my maths.. i try to aim a B3 for prelims.. quite impossible.. but still i'll try.. english... hmmm.. i dunno.. i hpe for a B4..!.. =)) combined science.. im aiming for a B3 or B4 the least.. =)) tml.. not very confident.. in fact i may fail chinese for the first time.. hehehe... first time in 16 years im gonna fail chinese.. lalala..

miss kodi is absent today.. heard frm qiujin that they had to do the compre paper.. but no instructions were given to us.. so we didnt do it.. well... hmmm... cleared my desk at the end of the day..loLss... a big mountain of books.. lalala...

tml.. having night study again.. think i'll use the time to do the compre.. or maybe i'll do chemistry.. =)) yupp. gtg for now.. start studying for tml prelim.. =)) take care my frens!!

2005-05-03T20:17:00.000-07:00

today is the day.. when we've officially stepped down from band.. it past very quickly.. we got our tags.. wore it for like a while then we handed over.. sigh.. peijun and huiyi gave me a doggy necklace and a card.. i almost cried, but i didn't.. i held back my tears.. yupp.. had cookies frm the band.. and words of encouragement frm miss lee.. took many pictures with the members.. wif miss shim etc..

but yet some1 had to make things worse.. im feeling terrible enough and yet someone had to come and talk to me, and pick a fight.. wad a funny sentence. " why do u like to mak things complicated and let ppl misunderstand u?" u think i like it? i dun like it ok.. u never take my words for real.. whenever i really wanna hava gd talk abt this friendship, u're always fooling around, thinking that it is funny..

i'll stop here.. too tired to carry on..

2005-05-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

been a few days since i blogged.. i have nth much to say either.. sigh.. i can't slp.. tml's handing over.. feeling kinda down now.. i dunno wad to say.. it feels like not too long ago.. i was appointed as the uniform officer and section leader.. now.. im left with nothing.. not even a tag.. haiss... it's like after tml.. we'll have nth more to do with the band.. so.. yupp.. tml i'll bring cam.. to take pics for everyone.. fun shot yeah.. =)) i'll try to slp.. so.. yupp.. thats abt it..

2005-04-29T22:12:00.000-07:00

had an enjoyable day today.. =))

miss lee treated us to seoul garden.. me,weihsin,bel and adzrul got there kinda late.. hehehe.. cuz bel had audition.. heard tt it was kinda success.. wooo~ hmm.. i was so hungry... i ate alot.. miss lee was like staring at me.. u can actually finish that big plate of food? i nodded and she was like oh.. carry on.. wahahaha... im so hungry..

im so touched today.. i was running abt in seoul garden.. disturbing ppl as usual.. =)) then i got back to my seat i was like WOW.. theres this big plate of chicken.. cooked already.. then i was like wah who put it here? then i was told it was peijun and sijia who cooked it.. hehe.. i this SL always so fierce towards them yet they cook for me.. hehehe.. then i disturbed peijun.. i cut her queue while getting ice cream.. but after tt i said i will not cut ur queue but u have to take ice cream for me! =pPp and she scooped 4 big scoops for me.. yummy.. ran into chuen shoon,seetoh,duanne and shaune at seoul garden.. lolss.. 4 rich guys go there eat.. =)

as usual, something unhappy has to happen at such a joyous celebration.. zhi how lost his hp.. somehow they were passin his phone around and it went missing.. siti was the last to see it, and she said she placed it on the table.. well.. sigh sigh.. y must such things happen? i pity him =x

talking to huimei now.. abt how yingqi used to defy me and yet now me and her r like so close.. i told huimei.. i simply dun like lina.. u can say tt im stubborn,biased against her or that i am wadever. but i simply cant stand the look of her. her attitude. her tone of talking to her seniors. if she changed during the first time she apologised to me for being defiance, i would not have the impression of that she's wadever u can say abt her. but, now no matter wad she does, i will never believe again. i wont be so dumb again. how i wish i wasnt so naive to believe in her for even the first time. i believed her, ask her not to repeat it. yet it happened time and again. each disappointment made me shed tears, yet it was for nothing.. u think i'll believe again? it's jus like my xiao bai knows tt im always tricking him into coming to me to get food but the truth is that i jus wanna carry him. it works the same way. i will not believe that she will be sorry. even if it is real, sorry ever heard of the boy who cried wolf? nah.. im not so dumb..

yupp.. tues will be the handover... i hope for NOTHING.. i jus hope she doesnt downgrade the uniform standard.. yupp..

2005-04-28T21:20:00.000-07:00

3rd of may...

after this day, i will not be able to touch my instrument anymore.. this day marks the end of my band life as a band member, a committee member.. sigh.. and i have to put on the tag for lina.. if she will definitely do a gd job, i dun mind.. but.. im afraid tt she will not.. sigh... y y y...

tml going seoul garden for lunch.. a treat frm miss lee.. i dunno if miss shim got chip in.. but anyway it's a treat for our bronze.. yupp.. =)) i'll bring cam.. to take pics.. or i'll miss them.. i'll miss my darling the most.. sigh.. hopeully wanti will treat it well.. =((

oh ya.. i fufilled my dream of playing all the instruments in band.. i played clarinet(no sound, but i tried!! =pPp), trombone,trumpet,TUBA(i've been hoping to play it),flute( no sound oso.. sian).. sax i played before.. but i rmb no sound oso.. no talent in woodwinds.. too bad... hehehe...

i've gotta run now. gd bye my frens.. =))